Sudahlah sayang,
I don't believe you.
I've always known that your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.
So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.
-Kantoi - Zee Avi .

All of these , all this lying and hiding , I'm th cause of everything . And when situations like this come into place , there's gotta be someone that takes th blame right ? I'm willing to . Cause , I'm th cause of all this , and there's nobody to blame but me myself and I . Atleast , at th last breath , I became truthful to both parties .

Stephen and Azini . My 2ex boyfriends , because , I twu-timed them together , and I'm in no place to beg for their return . And all I wanna say is that , I do love th both of youu and I still do . Baby , th word's love . And I know that none of youu will be my friend anym . Not to mention , just talk to me . But atleast , please forgive those that know about this 2-timing . That's th most I could ever ask for . It was never their fault , it never was . It was all mine(: , I duntwant to cast th blame on to others , and say it's their fault when it's never . Please , as youu may read this , I begg for yourr forgiveness .

If any of youu guys aree wondering , yes , I cried , and yes , I'm still cryingg . I'm wondering whyy I've cried so much . Whyy I'm still cryingg and in pain , but then at th endd , last night , I slept at 2+ , telling MingHan everything . He made me stopped and ponder , wondering whether in th first place , it was worth to take th risk to twu-time him no actually them . Ohkayh , It's my fault and all , and I shouldnt have , but , what's done is donee . I mean , stuff . Yes , I apologize , I'm sorry Azini and Stephen , I love youu guys ! Andd I still do . 'god , words are seriously just so hard to believe . I mean , I know that myself , so , it doesnt matter if youu guys dunt believe me(: Smiles .

Anyws , I'm here to apologize(: Apologize lemme say , especially Stephen&Azini , ohFuck , I'm in such terrible situation with my friends right now . And I really do regret what I've done . I mean , I dont knoe how to face th both of youu ! I mean , seriously . And I guess , nonee of youu guys will forgive me right ? I mean , esp for what I've done and stuff . Th truth is , I've always wanted to tell youu , I mean th both of youu , youu guys cann askk Shaqdah . I've neverr said anything , becus , I dunt daree . I mean , I dunt daree to sayy anything about everything . I didnt know wheree I'd start even if I hadd ever had th guts to say anything . I'm sorry for keeping all this from youu guys , and I know that this is not going to lead us anywhr , but I just want to let youu guys know this . It's ... Iduntwant to keep it in and every(: I really want to say everything out aloud and let everyone hear this , becus , my friendship and relationship with everyone now seems so fuckedup . But , I'mma be strong , and tahann , becus , I'm at th downs now , and I'll be going up again . Maybee I havent fell to th most bottom part , but I know , I'mma keep falling , thenn gnr finally wakeup and climb back to th top again , wheree I've always been !

I just wanna sayy , I'm sorry Stephen ,&I do lovee youu (: I'd miss th fun times with youu , I'd miss call youu babee / babyy . I'd miss how youu'd send me home and we did takee photos tgtr . I would really miss , recieving yourr msgs and asking about my day and everything (: Thankyouu , for being there for me for th past few weeks(: I still rmbred th dayy whenn I told youu that I'd agreed to tryy it out withh youu , youu were likee soo ghey and soo happy , and I was like asking youu whether youu weree soo happy that youu couldd jump about yourr house . Babyy , you're indeed one of a kind ! Andd I miss youu .

Andd to Azinii , I'm at my deepest regrets to havee done so much things to have hurted youu . Ever since December 11 . I rmbred that dayy by th carpark and everyth . I still rmbred everyth that happened that day . And thenn th following days after that . Youu know what I'd miss th most ? I'd miss yourr touch , andd yourr msges (: 'sitting&talking' by th staircasee , and how youu came overr to my placee , and ate my cooking , and youu said it tastee worser then yours ! Meaniee !): Thenn how we drank beer with Raihan and Shaqdah . Andd smokingg at th smokingg area and everything .(: Imissyouu babyy , and get well soon . I know that youu're sick !): Go see a doctor !

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