So Far , So Close♥

2010-03-06T21:40:00.000+08:00

Let's go back to the time where we smoke .

Let us smoke until our lungs turns black .

My blog's nearly dead , and I should jolly well let it be .

I don't know what's wrong with me the past few days . It's like , I dont want to be in the photo , instead , I wanna be the photographer . I wanna talk but the timing to talk is always not right . Not to mention that I've been getting angry , agitated and irritated very easily in the past week or so . Pfft , don't bother to ask me why . Go away .

'All I ever wanted was for you to be happy my dear .'

I've been thinking alot . The comparison between Singapore and Aussie ! Dang , I miss that place . I super miss Kivi , Shirley and co . ): I miss their kebabs , and fries with chicken salt ! Whatever . I wanna go back Aussie . ): Hao Houang promised to bring me clubbing with free entry into his friend's club . Awesome .

'You brought this hell to me , and now , I just wanna give it all back to you .'

Everyone has moved on , and looked forward . They've become gay and much more cheerful . Everyone cheered up . But , I'm still clinging onto the past . I keep thinking and missing him , it's not normal . Especially when it's Jay , yes , especially when it's Jay ....

'If God created a time machine , the word 'regret' would not be in the dictionary.'

I really just want some time alone , please ! You're like , bugging me every minute , asking me what I'm doing , asking me to do this and do that . You're really suffocating me , there's no place to breathe ! No air . And on my grave , your name would be there , as my mother , and a murderer ; my death bed .

Till here then ladies and gentlemen . GoodNight .

with Love ,

SalinaSeeHuiMin .

p.s. Can you feel my agony and pain baby ?

2010-02-13T00:06:00.001+08:00

When you're just left to die

Today haven't been quite a celebration for me like everybody else's .

First ; I got Noel angry .

Second ; Sist got angry at me .

Third ; I stupidly interpretted Noel's message wrongly , and then made a stupid decision .

Fourth ; I got Arian irritated .

Fifth ; Tmrws' swimming got cancelled !

I'm just not sure whether there's gonna be a sixth and seventh and so on and so forth . Fuck today mans I swear ! It's getting on my nerve so badly ! Oh , and did I mentioned that I fell down when I was roller blading at ECP just now infront of all the skater boys . Their conversation after I fell and when I was still on the floor went like ;

A ; Hey ! Is she alright ?

B ; It's just a fall , she'll be fine !

A ; But she's still on the floor !

B ; She'll be ohkayh , so just skate .

A ; I think I should go check whether she's ohkayh .

Then after that , some guy approached me and asked whether I was ohkayh , just to know that he was some National Park's person . Lol ! And he gave me 4dollars worth of Macs voucher . /:

It's Chinese New Year in two days or so , and I don't even have the 'let's go visiting' spirit . My shoulders are screaming in pain . I just wanna stay at home and do nothing , but sleep , eat and watch tv ! There's no mood for the long weekends either ! Teachers just keeps giving homeworks and homeworks and homeworks ! They think we no life one meh ? *roll eyes .

I'm fighting with Arian , for the first time . -.- Jeez , I really irritated the shit out of him ! Whatever lurr ! He thinks it's damn easy to make decision consisting 4different people , and having to satisfy their needs and whats not one meh ?! -.- Then I'mma get Noel irritated also , because he whole thing is cancelled ! Not to mention that the four of us looked forward on going diving into the 5meters deep pool ! Vanessa and her somersaults , Arian and Noel with their swimmings and me just wanting to dive . Tmd , forget it ! What's the point of thinking of it when it's alr cancelled siiah ?

How does it feel to be crying in the middle of the night , and no one even having to care ? That pain that has been stabbing in and out of your heart . And no matter how hard you tried , your tears just can't help but keep rolling down your cheeks . You're panting so hard , that the world seemed so distanted . Everything was slowly going out of reach . And later , then you realized that you've boxed yourself in , and your brain shuts down , and your heart closes up . And you see nothing because you're drowning in darkness .

About three days ago , I started to have the thinking that life was like a fairy tale . You go through all the hard shits in the beginning , and then later on , you get all the good stuffs . And I reckon that hard shits come in many different type of forms . There are types in which , it's tattooed onto your body . And also there are just types where they are just a small red dot on your plain dark blue tee . And what's the hard shit that I've been going through ? Those type in which , you just keep dropping your phone , and slowly it will start to lag , and spoil . Besides the fact that the shits that you're going through can't spoil ! Aiyah , guess what , Fuck this ! And Fuck that ! I should stop beating around the bush , and I guess I should just shut up . Whatever , *roll eyes .

w/Love ,
Sals .

p.s. Let's try to pull myself out of politics . (:

2010-02-07T18:34:00.000+08:00

When emptiness is all you have

There's school tomorrow which is like , shit . I haven't even touched my homework , and I'm not even planning to do so . There's like tonnes and tonnes of homework . And I wanna go skating right now . I'm planning to go skating in a while at EastCoastPark . Then dine at the foodcourt there . *tired .

Yesterday was like , full of laughter . Met Arian and Noel at around 1320-ish , at Parkway Parade KFC . Stupid Arian didn't even explain where they were properly . I was lost . *sad .
Ate at KFC while Noel and I were just laughing at Arian while he was explaining about stuff that happened at work . Shaqdah came , and we went Giant to grab food . Then came along Jovin and Vanessa . Overall , yesterday was just full of laughter and fun . The end .

School's until 6pm tomorrows . Art for a whole three hours . I'm not sure whether I'll enjoy it or drag my foot through the whole journey . I think I'll just drag my foot throughout the whole day . There's gonna be mothertongue tomorrows , and I'm just planning to sleep through it . Happy*
Hope that Vanessa comes school tomorrows . *grins .

I'm like lost , after that whole day yesterday . After knowing that he had a sudden change in mind . I told him about the sudden change in him . And I know that he had merely shrugged his shoulder after he replied my message . That sudden emptiness , oh god , I'm not prepared for this . I shouldn't even feel this way in the first place . This is absolutely not normal at all . *roll eyes . I should really stop contacting him . Though , I must say , Thanks for keeing me occupied for the past one week or so . *grins .

Oh , and I wanna say a big ThankYou for all those that wished me HappyBirthday . *smiles .

w/Love ,
Sals .

p.s. Please , let me crawl and sink into misery .

2010-02-05T17:31:00.000+08:00

When nothing is ever going your way

Fuck any other normal days at school , and throw away all those fucking memories of us having to study . It's the bloody weekend babe !

Blog's been dead , for a month or so . Homework's been piling up and all . And they just keep coming . Never-ending homework cause deprive of sleep , stress and no life . Stupid school . Mom's keeps telling me ; 'Just listen and never talk back to the teachers , get on with your secondary school life and get out of the school .' Lol .

Moved to Costa Del Sol on the 23rd of January . And it's the 5th of February already . What have I been doing leaving my room in a state of mess . Everyone's getting a new bed or new bed frame to fit the wooden parts of our room . New sofa came in , it's leather this time ; yellowish white I dare say . And everything else is still the same . Grins .

I just popped a Godiva chocolatier in my mouth ; dark chocolate it is . *drops head . Dark chocolate's so not my thing . That bitter and long lasting taste in my mouth sends a weird tangly feeling down my spine . Awful , awful , awful . Yucks .

Tomorrow's birthday . My birthday . And how am I going to celebrate it ? Stay at home , puts my leg on the coffee table and watch TV . How productive . The birthday party was cancelled due to some very irritating happenings . And to add up with th unhappy happenings , I'm having my periods . What a time to be agitated . Dinner would most probably be steamboat even with dad insisting on Swissotel Merchant Court's Ellenborough Market Cafe .

I'm tired , speechless , and feeling pathetic . *roll eyes . This feeling so irritates me .

w/Love .
Sals .

p.s. Bring me back .

2010-01-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

Ohkayh , so Salina's got a dead blog . So what ? Big deal ! *roll eyes .

And for those that kind of reads my blog and what not , deal with it if I don't blog ! *roll eyes again . /:

Ohkayh ! So it's the third week of school . And I'm already so tired and I'm practically been deprived of my sleep ! ): The homework's been piling up like it's nobody's business . And every teacher thinks that we spend our time going out with friend , so on and so forth . And the truth is we spend our time at home rushing thru our homework all because school ends super late ! Grrr . Irritated . ):

I'm currently using the 'Safari' internet thing , and not internet explorer anymore . I don't know why . But I just want to (: It's my new download :3 .

Well , time to go back to my homework :3
So , I'll catch up with you people some other time . (:

Byee :3

with Love .
Saliinaa See ..

p.s. I'm like superr tired alrr . ):

2009-12-22T22:10:00.000+08:00

The party was awesome ! (: Awesome and Awesome indeed !(:

Birds of a feather flock together

Yesterday !
It was Andre's christmas party . Everyone was looking forward to it ! :D ohkayh , well at least Shadqah , Angiie and I were /:

People like , Ain , Tiara , Andre , Shaqdah , Angiie , Deva , Steven , Stephen , Jein , Marcus , Me , Haikal , Kathie , Danial were invited . ( I dunt know if I'm missing anyone out . I think I'm . But I just duntknoe who . /: ) At the end , Marcus couldn't come cause he had an operation . -'Get well soon BraveHeart (: -' . Steven couldn't make it either , due to some difficulties . ): Kathie couldnt come either ): I miss them all ! ):

It was fun fun fun !(: We did tonnes of jumping shots . (: Wee (:

At the beginning , it was only the girls doing the Bbq , cus the boys said that girls are born to do the cooking . While they played soccer in the function room after getting the fire started .
BlahBlahBlah . Cock Talk . LOL !
Had fun (:
Exchanged presents.(: Got Ain , so I had to give Ain the Rubi's shoes , brown belt (broke! D:) and clover necklace .(: YeayhYeayh !(: And shockingly , she got me too !! D:
She got me this super super pretty tube dress and superr pretty shorts from MautherFarker (:
I LOVE AIN ! and Andre got me boxers that costed 350baht ./: LOL ! :D
Left his place at around 10-ish . (:

Today !
Wokeup at 12-ish from Angiie's phone call . Grrrr . ): Then watch tv until 2 liddat then went shower . After that , went to YewTee point eat (: Then wait until jie cut hair finish . (: LOL !:D
Then walk to Ahyi house . (: Then carried Leya while jie teach MinLe the 'Sorry Sorry - Super Junior' dance . /: LOL !
Thenn blah ! LOL !:D

Gotta wakeup early tmrws to go Aljunied to get jie's watch . /: then go walk walk at Bugis/Fareast . D:

Till here(: Nights !=D

w/Love ,
SallySee (:

p.s. Maybe gonna change back to my old blogging style . /:

2009-12-20T21:29:00.001+08:00

I'mma change the way I blogg now (: Cus it's damn laychey uhs , the way I use to blog . /: Hahas (: So it's just gonna be all new (: Lol ! =D Gonna change blogskin soon too !(: Tgtr with my blog pic (:

Don't try to teach your grandma to suck eggs .

That phrase caught my eye .(: Salina's happy ((: Lol !

Went Shopping today (: Brought two tee and someone's christmas' present from Lot1 (: And then went Chinatown for winter shopping :D Lol ! (:

Hotpot today at some restaurant at Tanjong Pagar or was it Tiong Bahru ? /: Dunt rmbr !): Shit . My memories' been failing mee !! *angry .

I'mma go Amsterdam on the 25th , 11:55pm flight (: Wee~(: I'mma freezee to death): So , no blogging until some other day when I'm happy(:

I'mma go to like , Amsterdam , Brussels , Paris , Lucerne , Schaffhausen , BlackForest , Rhineland and Cologne !(: Damn , that's alot of travelling . /: I'mma be drop dead tired !):

But I'mma have fun (:

Will upload the pics when I come back and have time !(:

O levels nextyearr ): Starting to get worried , not to mention we'll be getting our art theme at the start of the year . /: Alas will assist me , right Alas ? :3

Shit , I've got to stop blogging now . I've yet to wrap the girls' present ! Wahhh ! /:

Stressed about what to wear !!! . Lol !

Oh and , MerryChristmas and Happy NewYear all (:

w/Love ,

SallySee . {♥}

p.s. I've got to remember to relink Eileen , Herinna and VanessaSist when I come back .

2009-12-04T16:43:00.001+08:00

(: am currently listening to Arian and Noel sing on the phone:D
Yes boys , it's sweet and nice (:
Currently blogging with my iPod (: it'sah new application that I downloaded(: i'm still wondering how it will turn out /:

Till here ,
SallySee{L}

p.s , I still love you the way you are(:

2009-12-02T22:19:00.002+08:00

wants to blog but am currently lazy /:

2009-11-24T04:21:00.005+08:00

And I Know Someday That It'll All Turn Out

You'll Make Me Work So We

Can Work To Work It Out

And I Promise You Kid That I'll

Give So Much More Than I Get

I Just Haven't Met You Yet

Mmmmm ....

I Might Have To Wait

I'll Never Give Up

I Guess It's Half Timing

And The Other Half's Luck

Wherever You Are

Whenever It's Right

You Come Out Of Nowhere And Into My Life

And I Know That We Can Be So Amazing

And Baby Your Love Is Gonna Change Me

And Now I Can See Every Possibility
I just haven't met you yet - Michael Buble

A Woman Wants You - This must be from my fiancé needing money again!!

McCafe IceLatte, Saiful ? Azini ? My treat !

I was pouring away a whole cup of IceLatte with melted ice in it today . Or no wait , yesterday . And a sudden memory of Saiful and Azini just flashed right thru .

How we did wakeup early in the morning to go for breakfast at MacDonald's Fajar before school . What we did order , and what drink we did get .

Memories much huh ? Hhaas ! Can't help it , a sudden flashback I dare say ? Pfft , hahas ! /: Flashback much indeed . ((:

If only I could bring back those memories , hmphs . I wonder how nice that did be . Even Alas wants a time machine . Yeaa , I'll be the second one in line ! Hhaas ! Talk-cock eh ! LOL !=D

And now , I would rmbr the happy meal hotcakes I did get , with IceLatte extra syrup . 4margarines I did get . And I totally forgot to mention , I always get hashbrowns . (:

It's like , I'd pour th hotcake syrup on the hotcakes , and then dunk hashbrowns into the left over syrups . And they just taste downright nice .

I want those memories back now ! Guys ? Up for it ? My treat ! ((:

Solicited Piece'o Actual Mail

If some of you might realized , my blog had been spammed .

It said : eh not virgin say not virgin la. Step wad 1 virgin only..

I replied , angry maybe ? Sounding harsh and all , but like what Vanessa said , there's no point getting angry and wasting my time on them . Hhaas ! And I agree(:

I'm not going to delete that comment . I'mma just leave it as it . And let those that wanna read read . 'cus , c'mon , my blog's not private or anyth . Anyone from the public have the right and there's something called the 'freedom of speech' . This is a free country . I mean , the public have the right to tell me how they feel and voice their opinions about me on my tagboard .

True ? Anyone ?

If those that just can't take what the public's gotta say . Then well , might as well not have a tagboard ; might as well make your blog private ; or might as well , do what I do , listen and ignore ?

I think expressing one's feelings/opinion about another is a good thing . Becus , that person's gonna know and learn and 'understand' (?) what the public's view of them is . And we as the 'blog-owner' should recieve th comments nicely and likewise , but a gentlemen and reply . It's just manners .

Today's plans !

Meet VanessaNicoleCheongSuLin at 11.15am YewTee , to go school . Some idiot didn't handup her edusave form . Stups . -.-

After which , Gonna head down to Lot1 to get a anklet .

Then Lunch , at plaza maybe ? I wanna eat ChickenRicee !(:

After that , work at 3 . ): Sheesh .

And it's bloody hell 4:56am , and I'm still not in bed . ): Jeez , how am I gonna survive . ):

Then VNCSL's gonna meet Noel (mr.Evil) and Arian (mr.Go Die) for L4D2 at Timah , so far ! ):

I was meant to go !): Noel kept asking me to take an urgent leave . Hhaas ! Then I replied him plainly , 'no' . HAHAS ! =D I'm mean): Sorry Noel ! Hahas !

That's it so far ? *wonders .

RockCandies and white Contacts !

Oh Oh ! I'mma get my white contacts with black borders next Tuesday at CityHall ! Can't wait ! (: Imagine going out with me wearing that ! Wooh ! ((: then after that I wanna get rockCandy from either Central or Novena ! :D Yumms !(: Can't wait ! xD
Yes Vanes , I wanna get RockCandy . We can get poppingCandy from Suntec first if you want . :3 .

Till here then peoples (:

w/Love ,
♥'小Sillyy (:

p.s . Stephen's mohawk looks hot !(:

p.p.s . Sorry we made you remove your tagboard sweetypie . Thou , we did have fun spamming . Oops . =x . Hahas .

p.p.p.s . Chick Code ; Vanessa ?

2009-11-19T18:51:00.003+08:00

I'm not the type to get my heart broken

I'm not the type to get upset and cry

Cuz I never leave my heart open

Never hurts me to say goodbye

Relationships don't get deep to me

Never got the whole in love thing

And someone can say they love me truly

But at the time it didn't mean a thing

Per-chorus:

My mind is gone, i'm spinning round

And deep inside, my tears i'll drown

I'm losing grip, what's happening

I stray from love, this is how I feel

chorus:

This time was different

Felt like, I was just a victim

And it cut me like a knife

When you walked out of my life

Now i'm, in this condition

Cry - Rihanna .

Keep your nose to the Grindstonee .

Killing zombies helps to destress . Yes ?

The titles says it , 'zombies' and 'destress' . So it's like L4D-ed today aat IRC Timah with xCandy , Cp , and two of Cp's friends((: Onee word to describe his friends is , 'nerd' ((: . Like seriously ! No offense Cp . But yeahh ((: .

Anyws , L4D was fun . ((: Our names was superr lamee ! Cp's friend had this name like ,'Cp is an epic failure' and Cp's one was 'Salina eat shit' /: and Mine was just . 'xSilly((:' Then Cp friend changed it to ; 'The boy next to Cp is irritating' . Someth like that . ((:

'cus there was just this kiddo from Chinaa that keeps irritatingg us . He's considered 'pro' cus he knows what's coming up and what's not . Then he would bring me to a save place that would overlook the whole thing-o . And then th kid won't let me play until Cp came to my rescue and carried that kiddo away .

Then he keeps snitching away the mouse from Cp , pity him bigtimee/: Hhaas ((: irritating .

L4D-ed for two hours ((: and it was rainingg)):

There's actually alot to blog about , but I'm lazy )): Lol !(: .

Oh , and a new gan todayy((: .

Cp is my marmy from now on !(: th. {L} . 'cus 'yall see , he was nagging at me like some mother . So he's my marmyy from now on ((: . 19thNov2009 is noted ((: . I lovee mummyyy ((:

Till here today peoplee ((: Lazyy wann blog niiaos):

w/{L}

xSillyy ((:

p.s. Yes , you're slowing getting out of my head . And then later on , you'd be finally , gonee . Poof* , and disappearr .

2009-11-19T02:50:00.001+08:00

Jealousy

I thought you were my best friend

I thought we'd be together 'til the end

You're not the girl I once knew

Tell me where she is but she's not you

You used to be that shoulder

That shoulder I could lean on through it all

But now it's getting colder

There's no love between these walls
I only wanted what was best for you

I was always happy

When I was watchin' you become a star

But you were only happy

When the world was openin' up my scars

And now I'm like the devil

Well if I am then what does that make you

You sold yourself for your fame

You'd still never walk a day in my shoes

Paris Hilton - Jealousy .

She compresses her voice , and have a hot boyf .

But sadly she doesn't have that face .

Green with Envy .

Shockingly I was working with L today . I wasn't expecting to work with L as I haven't seen L or worked with L for quite some time alrr . And today , I worked with him/her .

I tried my best to hid all the grudged I hed against L . I tried my very best . And I guess , I succeeded (?) wonders* . I was still laughin' , jokin' around and playin' with L like anyone would do with their workmatee .

I held grudges against her/him , it'sah personal thing . Becus , it's like , when someone had between us , he/she goes telling L . -.- And it was pissing me off badly . And someone says that they are merely 'abang/kakak' relationship . But the truth is , someone messages L compares with the number of messages he/she sent to me . Baka* (jap word for idiot)

You swore to change for the better .

What'sah promise when it's broken ? What's made up of empty promises ? Lies and more lies right ?

I know that I barely know B , and he/she wants me to be tgtr with him/her . But with that fucked-up/shitty attitude of his/hers . What makes B think that I would accept it ?

B promised me , and said that he/she will change , and change that fucked-up attitude of his/hers . You blooody promised me B . You did ! And the effort you put in to change yourself . It all went to th drain !

When I was alrr gonna havee a good impression of you , you made my thinking and all changee like totally ! But then what happened today . What kind of message you sent me ? What kind of attitude iszit that you were showing to me at work B ?! What kindd ?.

y'kno , it makes me pity those that have to tolerate with all th nonsense you carry around with you everyday ! And I feel so stupid and all , for feeling sorry for you . But I guess , I don'thave to . AT ALL !

Shutup ! Fuckoff ! I don'twant you ! I don't even wanna see you no moree ! Nb , pb ! Go awayy !

I heard them say ..

When you're at some foodcourt down at town . The prices is double or maybe triple of the prices compared with all the small suburbs on the outter part of the country . The environment is different . The people is different . But the food's the same (to some extend) .

I was dining at Suntec 'City' on Monday . Okhayh , maybe not 'down at town' , it's the outskirt of town . But we still expect the same thing cus it's near town !.

So I was dining , at some foodcourt , then there was this mini restaurant located in the foodcourt . It was Thai that day . ((: Superr nicee ;DD x333 !

When we are at foodcourts , there owe to be 'aunties' and 'uncles' that help us clear the plates , bowls , cutleries , trays , food crumbs , etc . And , they are human indeed . Meaning to say , they need to eat and take their break .

So , it was break time for this couple of aunties . It was approx. eight plus in the evening , and surely there are tonnes of place to sit , as it was no longer dinner timing .

There was this long table that two guys , (ages 20+) had their dinner . They were at the far end . And here comes this two aunties , going to sit at the other end .

And immediately , the guys looked up , and stared at the two aunties , and asked themselves , 'why are these cleaners sitting with us ?!'

Just for the record people,

this is not a truee storyy(: .

But many singaporeans might do that . It's just that we're not aware of , maybe .

w/{L} ,

xSillyy .. ((:

p.s. I'mma try to forget him . I should , right ?

2009-11-19T01:09:00.000+08:00

Th. inseperablee Lovee (: {L}

xCandyy (VanessaNicoleCheongSuLin) ! ((:
xSilly loves youu manymanyy(: y'see I'm not gonna go on and on and on about stuffs like what you wrote on yourr blogg . 'cus your blog said it all ! It's touchingg , I know . (: I'mma cut it short and sweet (: That'd be more awesome . Yes ? Hhaas ! And that short and sweet is just gonna be one sentence . (:
I lovee diee you !((: Lol ! Lamee !(:

xJaeee (JovinDiongXinYi) !! ((:
xSilly lovee dieee you niaos (: It's so funny , how now I'm yourr mummy and yourr sisterr . Hhaas ! Anyth , must comee sharee with us sisters uh I tell youu . Don'tkeep insidee youu thenn laterr you burst uhh ! Lol ! Lame-o ((: Anyws , I've just gotta say this .
i lovee youu many manyy lurr ((:

w/Lovee ,
xSillyy . {L}

2009-11-16T17:45:00.009+08:00

I never dreamt it'd be this way

I've lost any chance for me to say

To say that I miss you, say that I love you

Will someone please tell me I'm okay

I wasn't prepared for what's to come

A life made of memories gone so young

And now I'm regretting all I've done

I never thought that this could go

And take me away from all I know

And leave me to think I'm on my own

But your love will take me, you were the one...

...Who sat through nights

You held me tight

And made sure I'm okay

And I thank you for the love you gave to me

Wherever you go, I will be waiting

Whenever you call, I will be there

Whatever it takes, I'll make your darkest days so bright

I'm in your heart tonight...

Gone so young - Amber Pacific .

Headaches are all over the place .):

sisters ! ;xCandy , xSilly , and Jovin . 17thNov2009 . Th {L} . :D
-Jovin , hurryup thinkk of a namee lurr !

Yes , ohkayh , there's no header for this small section here . (: cus , for this section here , I'll be just listing , so what's th point of a header ? *wonders .

Three things that I wanna make a list about .

#1 is about my schedule for the holiday . (:

#2 , the amount of homework I've got for this holiday . ):

#3 will be what I'mma get on my shopping spree ! (:

So here , the first listing (:

Get RockCandy from Novena or Central with xCandy .
Go wildwildwet with Diong and xCandy .
Shopping with xCandy and Diong .
Shopping with LynnChuaa .
IceSkating with LynnChua
work every Tuesday , Wednesday , Thursday and Saturday .):
Someone's chalet .
Meetup with Ivonn and Eileen (:
Cousin's bdae parteh . /:
mcdees family bbq ! (:
Pinic with whole bunch .
homework on free days . ):
Go findd weiJian at Bugis; Spade .

That's it for the time being (?) Hmphs ... Anyone wanna jio me out mahs ? Hhaas ! Lol ! =D

Time to list my homework(:

Principle of Accounts worksheet
TenYearSeries (maths) unit 1
Heymath .
Chemistry worksheet(s)
Physics worksheet(s)

That's it , and thankgod there's no more !

Here's what I'mma get when I go shopping with xSweet , Jovin and LynnChuaa !(:

Highwaist skirt
'Bikers' jacket .
Tubee Dress !
New bagg (:
those Big Ribbon hairbands(:
roxy/billabong wallet(:
I wanna go vintagee/retroo !((:

Donee with listingg . (: Blogging will be on the next post!=D

2009-11-11T14:13:00.004+08:00

Do you remember girl

I was the one

who gave you your first kiss?

'Cause I remember girl

I was the one who said,

"Put your lips like this."

Even before all the fame

and people screaming your name

Girl, I was there

and you were my baby

Yes I remember boy

'cause after we kissed

I could only think about your lips

Yes, I remember boy

the moment I knew

you were the one I could

spend my life with

Even before all the fame

and people screaming your name

I was there and you were my baby

Usher ft Alicia Key - My Boo .

When that fake smile of yours peels off,

Are you gonna stitch it back ?

He just kept tickling me , and all we did was giggle .

Cab-ed down to JK's yesterday(: The whole point of him asking me over was to make me copy 5times of this paper thing-o . /: I gave up half way thru the first copy ! Hhaas !

Then I was just sitting there , staring at the pack of ciggarettes on his table , and told him I wanna smokee !(: He was shock to know that I smokee eh/: Jeez . Smokee one stick , and I couldn't help but kept dirtying his table with ashes.(:

I couldn't help but kept 'poking' and 'hitting' him (: Hhaas ! And he started tickling me , and we totally forgot about his homework .

His dad came out of his room , and saw me ./: then I went like ; 'err , hello uncle ...'(: grins* and nods* Then he went 'Hello hello' something like that . (: and to find out that he was going out . Jees .

Then me and Jk was left at home alone . -.- He kept mapling , and I was just reading thru the thing-o I was meant to copy .(: Then I went poking him agains ! Then he tickled me again ! ): I felt like dyingg ! LOL !(:

After that , I cab-ed back to ahyi's housee !(:

When an innocent person becomes a slut .

I've got friends that lost it to guys whom they've known for quite some time , but they are merely friends . Hmphs . And I've got more pathetic friends that lost it to guys whom they met at some party .

And apparently , I'm just not one of them (:

Ex-boyf messaged me last night . He said that there are many spreading that I lost it . Jeez , I wonder who's the one that started all this nonsense .

C'mon laa , that fcuker that started all this rumours must hate me of some sort maybe (?) Hmphs , whatev .

And to all those out there that thinks that I'm not virgin , what prove or whatsoever do you guys have to prove that I'm no longer virgin ? Jeez , what hatred iszit that you people hold against me ?! -.- How about this , just fcuk off my back would you . Spitting nonsense like this would make dirty mouth like yours rot !

FuckOff ! -.- Jeez .

EggMcMuffin with Milo w/o ice please !

History finished at like 948am today(: Class was only 1hr and 22mins (?) plus minus (: Plus , we got like 20mins break !(: Love Mr.Raj (:

After history , meow and I went str. to panjang plaza to eat Mac's breakfast.(: I had like the EggMcMuffin meal I(: and I got th monopoly thing-o(: whatev.

Then we sat at the exact same spot for approx . 2hours plus minus (: we kept laughing about random stuff .

Our conversation went from , 'the enrolments of sec1 next year' to 'The number of classes in school for the past few years' to 'bimbo and bimbo's brother' to 'the MacDonald's game label' to rubbish talk !(:

She made me laugh when we were talking about bimbo and bimbo's brother(: Then someone came to macs , then we went quiet , and we went counting how many guys do we have around us(:

I've got like 7 ! ): Jeez . I just one 1 tiongxim onee !): Then she's got 4 but 3died): but apparently someone doesnt even know what we were going on about(: and , according to someone, all my 7 are merely my toyboys . Lol . (:

Till here then peoples(:

w/Love ,

SallySee

p.s. All I want is you ; idiot / Dummy / dumbdumb(: iloveyou manymanyy(:

p.p.s. Having to see the change in you brings smiles to my face ; ex-boyf .(:

Oh , and I totally forgot to mention , that Kiong ZengYi ; Daniel died . ): Rest In Peace my dear boy .

And , See Hui Min ; Saliina is going to heaven , and search for him (: him and his soul . LOL ! Talk Cock siiah (:

2009-11-09T23:01:00.000+08:00

Not only you and me

Got one eighty degrees

And I'm caught in between

Countin'

1, 2, 3

Peter, Paul & Mary

Gettin' down with 3P

Everybody loves ***

Countin'

Babe, pick a night

To come out and play

If it's alright

What do you say?

Merrier the more

Triple fun that way

Twister on the floor

Britney Spears - Three .

I don't need to you to fake around stupid .

A pair of 4.50 shoes , and 1.50bubble tea .

Went to buy my working shoe today after school from Bangkit market .(: I was with Mirrah , Vanessa and Zahidah . (: Luke called me when we were half way there . and I picked up his call uneasily . /: Ohkayh , yes , I was feeling uneasy . ): I can't help it ):

We were talking about random stuffs for about 3mins , then I felt awkward , and said byebye to him and continued the conversation with Vanessa . (: Hhaas !=D it was funny , and Luke was shocked when I told him what our conversation was about ! (:

We reached Bangkit , and we went str to get my shoes for work first , then we went to get bubble tea (: The aunty told me that they didn't have my size , and that I would have to wait until tmrws to get my pair of shoes !): But instead , I found that the display set was my size , so without checking I just brought the pair of shoes(: Damn cheap ! It's only 4.50 !(:

We then continued on walking to the bubble tea shop , and walked pass a few familiar shops (: Reached and brought bubble tea , and asked this shop aunty how much they were selling this pair of short shorts .(: And it turned out to be 20bucks !/: Jeez ,): Not good .

Guilty Conscience towards Reagen .

Don'tknow what's been going on between me and Reagen today . ): I bet he went drunk due to drinking at Kbox down at cine . ): He's replying my messages late ! Jeez , he sucks !): Stupid Reagen . Youu better don't be late meeting me I tell you . Lol !(: Nonsense talks !=D Hhaas !(: Are you happy now Reagen that I'm blogging about you ? Later you scold me for not blogging about you again ./: Jeez . (:

WildwildWet, $120savings and outings

Vanessa , Jovin and I are planning to head down town for shopping ! So I'mma save approx. 120bucks !): Then we're planning to go www too !(: I bet I'mma make them laugh till their cheeks hurt !(: FunFunFun !(: I'm just stressing on am I gonna save 120bucks before christmas and some idiot's chalet comes up !(: Oh , yes girls , I wanna go before her/his chalet in December(: . I'm sick of wearing the same old t-shirts , vest , necklace , shorts , belts and shoes . ): I wanna get a dress !(: tube dress maybe (?) Hmphs . (: That did be awesome .:D

Till here then readers(: am tired and I'm still watching Fringe for all that I know(:

w/Love ,

SallySee .

p.s. I'm done hurting . And I'm done being hurt . Why must things be so unfair ?!

p.p.s. If you're still full of lies my dear , then you might as well tell me now that you're just gonna be playing with me . Then I won't put any emotions into such 'things' /

2009-11-09T00:26:00.000+08:00

Once more I'll say goodbye to you

Things happen, but we don't really know why

if it's supposed to be like this

why do most of us ignore the chance to miss

oh yeah

Torn apart at the seams of my dreams turn to tears

I'm not feeling the situation

Run away try to find that safe place you can hide

It's the best place to be when you're feeling like

Me! Yeah!

All these things I hate revolve around Me!

Yeah!

Just back off before i snap

Once more you tell those lies to me

Why can't you just be straight up with honesty

When you say those things in my ear

Why do you always tell me what you wanna hear

Wear your heart on my sleeve make things hard to believe

Bullet for my valentine - All these things I hate (Revolves around me)

When all the people you love gets hurt .

A helping hand and an unwanted voice .

I was stocking up during work today like another day after loads of work . The sauces and the toys . I was nearly done , the service was out the door , and that meant that no-one would come into the 'stock-up' area and disturb me of any case .

So , yes . I was stocking up . And an unexpected hand just reached out and grabbed a pack of chilli . But before it could reach it , I turned around and the 'thing' just disappeared . Yes , nonsense I reckon . And I'm sure I saw it . Hmphs .

I was done stocking up , and I was gonna throw away the empty boxes , when I hear that familiar voice calling me by the name that my family calls me by . The voice was damn right familiar , and I swear I heard someone calling .

It took me approximately 5secs to think and digest whose familiar voice it was . And then my brain told me , it was my brother's familiar voice .
I stepped out of the crew's area , and went searching for any signs of him . My hope was just so high that he brought Ashley with him to see me , to say goodbye to me until the next time he comes out of that jail of his .
And yes , I looked for them frantically . And my hopes was just washed into the drains . And I went back and continue on with throwing the boxes away .

When saying 'I love you' cause misunderstandings .

It was just yesterday that I went to Luke* (not his real name) and said '.... Love you too '. After having him saying bye to me with a 'i love you' .

It was today again . The same timing as yesterday . When we'd head down to the usual smoking place and relax .

Well , just on the way there , we were alone and all , and he pulled me over to him by my neck , and kissed me on my cheeks , and quickly pulled away . We continued walking and walking in silence . We reached , and we continued smoking , again this time we were sharing the same stick . Well , at least , we were meant to . But I decided not to smoke , so I just watched him smoke , and we continue talking .

We were so close to kissing , but , I turned away , and looked at Ain's block instead . And wondered about Ain.(: He kissed me on my cheeks again . And we continued our conversation . Then after awhile , my hands were with his , and he kissed my hand . (:

I'mma go sleep(: There's school tmrws . (:

w/Love ,

SallySee .

p.s. I've hurt one too many . And I'm done hurting others .

2009-11-08T01:54:00.000+08:00

We'll carry on, We'll carry on

And though you're dead and gone believe me

Your memory will carry on

We'll carry on

Until my heart I can't contain it

The anthem won't explain it

A world that sends you reeling from decimated dreams

You're misery and hate will kill us all

So paint it black and take it back

Lets shout it loud and clear

Defiant to the end we hear the call

To carry on

MCR - Welcome to the black parade

'I believe that karma takes places'

'It's another way to say "I love you" to someone .

We were just at the usual smoking place , a place where everyone would go to take a break from all the nonsense from work . And there I was with him all alone . Just smoking like I would with the usuals . Ofcus , Luke* (not his real name) isn't part of the usuals .

We were smoking , sharing the same stick , and talking some nonsense . Jeez , I found out that he's 18 , when I thought that he's 15 or someth .

I was rushing off , like any other occasion . As I walked off , we 'salam-ed' each other . His hand went to my forehead , while my hand went to his lips . He kissed it and jesus' , it was sweet . My mind went blank , and the hunger in me suddenly disappear . Jeez , I don'tknow what feeling I recieved . Then he went ; 'Kalau one day aku ajak you be my girl , blh ke tk' (trans ; what if there's this one day when I'mma ask you to be my girl , would you accept)

I just shrugged , and walked off . Then he went ; 'Byee ! Love you !' and I replied ; 'Yes , Love you too' .

Lol !(: I don'tknow . I've got to get guys out of my head !): and I think it's just down-right difficult .

When we're just so in need of a time machine

I'm worried about tmrws , there's gonna be work indeed . And 1530 to 2300 is the period of time that I'm just so dead worried about ! I hope that nothing will happen between M and B tmrws . Jesus , I'm just damn worried . ):

Iduntknoe , I just don'twant B to have another case under his name . And I don'twant M to ruin his reputation and all . Jeez , I'm dead-drop worried .):

And because of them , I've decided to not meet my dearest Ashley tmrws , and go to work to 'watch' over stuffs . I miss Ashley ! ): I haven't seen him in ages , and he's became super naughty ): Sad .

Goingg to orh-orh niaos !(: Goodnight readers !(:

w/Love ,

SallySee .

p.s. Please stop lying to me , I've seen enough liars alreadys. ):

2009-11-07T00:41:00.001+08:00

She said I think I'll go to Boston...

I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name,

I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather,

I think I'll get a lover and fly em out to Spain...

I think I'll go to Boston,

I think that I'm just tired

I think I need a new town, to leave this all behind...

I think I need a sunrise, I'm tired of the sunset,

I hear it's nice in the Summer, some snow would be nice... oh yeah,

Augustana - Boston .

The sense of anxiety .

All you've got to do is keep your eyes on the food; beybeh .

Dined at YewTee like any Fridays' . Jeez , it was borin' . The food taste average , the drink was the same everytime I dine there . It's boring . ):

Went walkin' around YewTee point with mummy , and brought some stuffs from ntuc and this 'loose powder' from Watsons (:

Then had some drinks at the foodcourt(: There was this 6 or 7 years old kiddo that kept staring at me . Jeez , she couldn't stop her gaze ! And it wasnt those where you secretly stare at her , it's those when she did just stare str into your eyes !

I stared back , then went back eating after breaking my gaze , but I could still feel her eyes on my skin .

I stared back , yes , it was those obvious stares , cus I don't give a damn sweetcakes !=D Then she finally dropped her gaze .

When Desperate man comes into placee .

YJ kept asking me to work for him tmrws , as a delivery girl . Jeez , what does he take me as .

-.- He's willing to pay me 50bucks(: He went from 30bucks to 43bucks then to 50bucks(: But I'm working at macs tmrws): There goes my 50bucks/cash): Haish , well , it doesnt really matter anyws , cus I'm not really short of cash currently anyws (: Besides for the 10bucks tmrws . Jeez . I wonder . Not to mention , I'm still tryin' to save up a hundred plus to go shopping with Lynn in December (: imissher ):

Well , he's still trying to 'con' me into working for him for quick money . Well , it's tempting and all , but , Jeez , I've really got to consider about that sweetcakes (:

He's what we call ; desperate(:

Addictive Computer Games (ACG) LOL !

I'm addicted to L4D right after the 1st game . Jeez , I wanna play again and again and again ! I wonder whether Vanessa's bored of it alr or nots .(: Hmphs , I wanna head down to Dhoby and play again on Tuesday ! D: cus the lan shop in Timah needs to log-in and we don't have !):

Actually , I was even thinking of downloading L4D on my laptop . Which is super stupid ! :L

I'mma head to bed now (: I'm damn tired , and there's like work tmrws . So , I've got tahan all the customers .):

w/Love ,

SallySee .

p.s. I'm begging , and 'cus he's like a really good friend of mine . You just couldn't gimme face and let him go and forget about the whole matter . All I'm asking for is to forget about what happened ./ Please . :L

2009-11-04T15:33:00.002+08:00

Justdoingsome updates, cus I reckon that my blog is rather dead):

Skipped np today ,well , cus I was forced to): Jeez , and I'm at some lan shop down at Dhoby): and yes , it's down right noisy): and the space on the keyboard is sort of spoilt):
Wanna go try playing L4D soon(: ttfn(:

time to edit my blog post !D=

Another head hangs lowly,

Child is slowly taken.

And the violence caused such silence,

Who are we mistaken?

But you see, it's not me, it's not my family.

In your head, in your head they are fighting,

With their tanks and their bombs,

And their bombs and their guns.

In your head, in your head, they are crying...

Another mother's breakin',
Heart is taking over.
When the vi'lence causes silence,
We must be mistaken.
It's the same old theme since nineteen-sixteen.
Zombie - Cranberries .

Ohkayh , so L4D was awesomee ! Only managed to play one game (?) cus someonee was hungry . Actually , I was too , but I could still tahan till the end of the next gamee lurr . But someone couldn't ): So one game it was \:

Then went to the building opp. to eat ChickenRice (: Mmmms , it was only nice to a certain extend uh actually): Oh , and did I mention that I was messaging Reagen the whole time ? Hhaas ! =D kept myself entertain to stay away from the two(:

But someonee go and take my phonee and don't lemme message for more then 15mins ! -.- Jeez ~ Idiot . =D

After eating chickenRice , we walked around Pomo (?) some shopping center's namee; I think . Then we went to this dance studio then this Hello Kitty shop and saw alot of stuffs that both me and person wanna buyy !(: Then after that some weird shop , then ColdsStoragee !(:

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Then train-ed down to RafflesCity find mummy (: wait for her to exercise and shit , then walked to the bus-stop and we saw YiChun ! Damn she looks pretty , :L

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Dinner-ed at Newton circle , hmphs . Didnt even eat much \: Wasn't hungry): Then car-ed back YewTee . And here I'm blogging(: Lol !

GonnaGo sleep niaos lurr (:

Nights readers =D

w/Love ,

Sally(:

p.s. Don't you show your bloody attitude to me again lurr cb . Nor would I regret my actions . Pfft .

2009-10-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs

From ten thousand lightning bugs

As they tried to teach my how to dance

A foxtrot above my head

A sock-hop beneath my bed

The disco ball is just hanging by a thread

(Thread, thread...)

I'd like to make myself believe

That planet Earth turns, slowly

It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake

when I'm asleep

Cause everything is never as it seems

(When I fall asleep)

You don'tknoe how guilty I feel , nu-er .):

It'sah fear and not depression .

Have anyone had the feeling that , when people look / point / laugh / say your name that they are just talking about you when they are just not ?

Many of you peepo feel the same way too rights ? Iduntknoe , it's just instincts I reckon . (:

It's like , I have been having this 'instincts' ever since I duntknoee , a while ago (?) Yes , it was quite recent . And it's like , the fear of gossip or maybe bitch-talking is like so damn strong , you would rather stay at home and lock yourself in the room and never expose yourself to the public ever again . Hhaas ! No laa ! I was exaggeratingg abit(:

But yes , the instincts in me of such things are rather strong ! And it's super damn scary the way it feels . Maybe what Vanessa said was true ; it's becus I keep hearing peepo gossip and talk shit behind my back , that I feel that everyone is doing that too ! Sheesh , I wanna just throw away this feelings ! I don'twant them ! ):

I think , this is what we call ; paranoid ?

I haven't finish blogging laa actually , I'mma go sleep and continue tmrws , (: I'm drop-dead tired ! (:

2009-10-29T23:06:00.000+08:00

I'm torn into pieces

Can't deny it, can't pretend

Just thought you were the one

Broken up,deep inside

But you won't get to see the tears I cry

Behind these Hazel Eyes

I told you everything ,

Opened up and let you in

You made me feel alright

For once in my life

Now all that's left of me

Is what I pretend to be

So together but so broken up inside

'cause I can't breathe

No, I can't sleep

I'm barely hanging on ..

Behind these Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

What makes you think that it doesn't hurt ?

If only we could re-test .

We're gonna be like collecting our results tmrws , and jeez , I'm super scared): I saw my results already indeed , and I failed all besides art , poa and english . And as written in the student's handbook , the criteria to get into express nextyear is 3subjects pass incl. english .

I bet my parents will be in a super bad mood tmrws , not to mention his current physical condition now . Jeez . ): Then they won't let me use the computer and all , then I won't be able to go out): then I would have to wakeup and study and all . ): Shit .

Stingy , but is willing to spend .

It was merely 80cents , and a 50cents lighter , and you're making a uber big fuss over it . You keep saying that 5cents and 10cents are all money , then what about the hundreds of dollars that you're willing to spend on your facial ? .

And not to mention , the amount of money you were willing to give to send me away to girl's home . Jeez , fuck !

Beauty Products

There was meant to be facial tmrws , but then mummy cancelled the appointment 'cus daddy's sick ): I haven't seen the doc for years ! And now we've got the appointment , we're not going . zZz .

I'm planning to get my eyebrows done and get pedi's on Saturday at Lot1 and Yewtee !(: Gonna get my nails done black !

Speaking of black , if I went for facial tmrws , I could of get the purple and black nail polish that I've been wanting ever since ages down at Ngee Ann city . zZz , forget it !

Have you ever realized my existence ?

I miss my someone badly , and I bet that his heart is still with that girl that shattered his heart terribly . And all I want to do now is to forget about him .(: 'cus I know that we're impossible . No matter how much Vanes tell me to contact him and all , and how much we look good tgtr and all , but I'm not gonna listen , I'mma just wash my hands off him . And treat each other like how we are meant to . No holding of hands , and I dunt lie on your shoulders and I duntcall you dear and you dunt call me darling . And then , that's it . End of story , I'm throwing every single memory that we had into the bin , and I'll never pick it up again .

Goodbye my dear; Navi , I loved you (:

w/Love ,

SallySee(:

p.s. When we bitch-talk about someone , I'd keep thinking that others are bitch-talking about me too . (:

2009-10-26T23:24:00.001+08:00

Saying I Love You
Is Not The Words I Want To Hear From You

Its Not That I Want You Not To Say

But If You Only Knew

How Easy It Would Be To Show Me How You Feel

More Than Words

Is All You Have To Do To Make It Real

Then You Wouldn't Have To Say

That You Love Me, Yeah

Cause I'd Already Know.

- Frankie J ; More then Words .

'If everything was to be picture perfect ; wouldn't be be awesome ?'

'This is more tiring then school , Gees'

Finally found the time to blog .(: Is still feeling drop-dead tired thou): Gonnago sleep soon I guess (?) . There's gonna be school tmrws which is sucha drag .): Don'twant school ! )': .

Didnt go to school for the past 2school days . (: Got to wake up late and all , (: and I didnt have to hear the teachers nag about stuffs that doesn't really concern me !(:

'It feels damn foreign , instead of home .'

Wokeup at likee eleventhirty-ish (?) From mummy's phonee call ! D: cleared my room and all (: Now , it's more neater , but I still need to sleep in the living room ):

'Headaches are what we call ; help to some matters'

Thought about alot of stuffs in the shower , some were just merely random stuffs , and plenty were just 'what am I to type on my blog later' type of stuffs . Hmphs , major headaches after the shower !): Don't like it . ):

'Babies are cute and naughty'

Drove Ashley to RegentGrove yesterday .(: miss die him . |: . Super naughty when he's only two ! He can't stop sayin' 'duntwant' in Hokkien . Wonder who's teaching him all this . Keeps calling for the Mrt everytime we sees it . He goes; 'Mrt-O !' then 'Mrt-Go !' then 'Mrt-byebye):' *sadface . Cute , yes , but super naughty .):

Don'twanna talk about it . It makes me think of something that my sis said)':

I think, it's just time to sleep(:super tired , and I've got to get use to waking up at like 545 from tmrws on ): Nights people !(: Loves .

w/Love ,

SallySee .

p.s. I think that , fake friends help the world spin too !(:

2009-10-22T16:35:00.000+08:00

Hello People !(:

Ohkayh , I know that my current post is damn plain , but I cant help it ): I'm rushingg y'see .(:
Ohkayh , so here's the thing . I won't be online nor going on to facebook for this week or so . So , anything just contact my on my phonee (: the number is 9040 3464 (: No pranks and forwards please ! (:

TIARA, please note !

The Pablo Picasso's song lyrics is the previous post . So , you've just got to go find it under the month Oct(: Well , Peggy wrote it for you alreadys anyws , hmphs , but even so , you better check it out first . 'cus there are some things that peggy didn't get to write down before the comp went dead in school . -..- Lol ! (: So , check it out !(: I duntwant to comee schoool on the performance day uh ! |: busy . (: LOL !

2009-10-22T16:30:00.000+08:00

Lyrics for Pablo Picasso's song .

He made first picture when he was 10 .
Never thought he could do that .
His father was proud of him .
As they were from an artistic family .

(chorus)
thrillions women swamp 'round him
giving inspiration towards art
talents led to cash and fame .

Blue Period

Rose Period

HappyBirthday Pablo Picasso y Lopez . (:

Published only for TIARA's means . -..- Hmphs .. LOL ! (: Laughs(:

2009-10-22T01:09:00.000+08:00

Pablo Picasso's Biography .
(in full , Pablo Diego José Francisco de Paula Juan Nepomuceno Maria de los Remdios Cipriano de la Santisima Trinidad Ruiz y Picasso)

DOB: 25thOct1881
POB: Malaga, Spain
DOD: 8thApril1973
POD: Mougins, France .
Father: José Ruiz Blasco (art teacher)
Mother: Maria Picasso Lopez .

Pablo's father recognized his son's extraordinary talents of his son at aged 14 after pasisng the entrance examination for the Barcelona School of Fine Arts . He (José) gave his son his brushes and palette and vowed never to paint again in his life .

In 1900 , he moved to Paris and loved the city . Lived with a journalist/poet friend ; Max Jacob . During those times , Picasso had to burned many of his painting to keep himself warm. ):

The BluePeriod (1900-1904)
The artist went thru different periods of characteristic painting styles . It's characterized by the use of different shades of blue underlining the melancholic style of his subjects - people from the grim side of like with thin , half-starved bodies . He also evoked feelings of sadness and alienation .
The RosePeriod (1905-1906)
Pablo moved from the BluePeriod to a friendly pink tone with subjects taken from the world of circus .

In 1907 , together with the French painter; George Braque , they pioneered cubism .

While in Paris , Picasso had a entertaining lifestyle . He had friends like Andre Breton and Gretrude Stein . He also had an active love life which meant , several mistresses along with a wife or a primary partner .

By 1912 , Pablo Picsso incorporated newspaper print , postage stamps and other materials into his paintings ; Collage it's called(: .
In the late 1920s , he turned towards a flat , cubist-related style .
In the 1930s , his paintings became militant and political . (Guernica (1937)) A masterpiece of his . showing the terror of the bombing of the town of Guernica during the Spanish civil war .
After WorldWar2 , Picasso's work became less political and more gentle . He spent his remaining years exploring carious historical styles of art , making several reproduction of the work of the earlier artists .

All the paintings by Picasso are usually classified into various 'pariods' based on the moods and styles of the paintings . These , in turn , were largely affected by his persoanl and love life .

http://www.buzzle.com/articles/pablo-picasso-biography.html

2009-10-20T01:55:00.002+08:00

'Cause when you're fifteen and

Somebody tells you they love you

You're gonna believe them

When you're fifteen and your first kiss

Makes you head spin 'round but

In your life you'll do things greater

Than dating the boy on the football team

But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted

Was to be wanted

Wish you could go back

And tell yourself what you know now

Fifteen - Taylor Swift

You and your sweet-talks are making my head spin and my heart beats' damn fast . (: With you here , telling me that you dreamt of me . And about how much you are missing and thinking of me rights now . I feel like I'mma suffocate if I don't breathe any time soon . My heart is beating thrice as fast as normal now . And how I wish that the night would never end . How I wish that every night is like tonight ; where I'd be sitting here , all alone in the dinner hall , talking to you about rubbish and all . Gawd , the images of you are making me blush and smile with no reason ! And all the sudden , I'm trying so hard to keep my laughter in to prevent everyone from waking up .
And suddenly , we stopped talking , and you're off msn , ohgod ! The time seems to be crawling . :\ , How I wish that I could rewind in time , and talk to you again . And now , all the feverish feel is all gone . I'm once again , coughing my lungs out . And sitting in the dinner hall , having my head lying against the laptop , typing your name over and over again ..
But then , I just realized , you prompted me on msn , and the orange flickering light of your msn name , makes my heart beat double up , and my head spin once again . How I wished that you'd be mine . |:

TillHere(:
w/Love,
SallySeeHuiMin .

p.s. How I wish that I could fly over to your hostel now , and accompany you till the night dies .(:

LeYaya ,(:

2009-10-19T01:55:00.000+08:00

TagReply.

2009-10-18T03:34:00.002+08:00

TagReplieees(:

@JOVIN(:'s SEE ! tag tag ! (:
-Thanks nahh thanks DIONGGGG !(:
@harvin's a conver between me and you?post it up in your blog i wanna read=Dt hks
- Not goingg to (: Shaqdah alreadyy read it freako !(: I think that's the most impt part ? Hmphs(: And besdies , I dontwant people going around to say that I edit it and all when I post it on my blog now(: Cheers Harvin !(: Stay cute (:
@Alas!'s Guessed wad?! It's F U C K UP OKAY!!! =(
- Aiyohh , don'tsad sad mah(: Cheerup laa kays (: Goodluck for you O's(: Don't think too much !(:
@! Debbie .'s Oiek Cousie ! Meet up soon kay ! [: Hees !
- Yerp2s ! Meetup soon indeed !(: Cheerup nahh kays ? Dont sad sad niaos !(: Missyouu !(:
@JOVIN(: (: 's taggy . nehver update . SIAN LA
- Aiyahh , Now I update niaos cann ?! Happy le mahs DIONG ?!
@JOVIN(: 's -.- what what . i also not that free one lor , see !
- Pleasee norh ! AtLeast you moree free then mee cans ?! LOL !(: Missyouu Diong (:
@harvin: 's i'm back after so long.why haven't put the conver up?
- Uhlaa , you know what Harvin ? Just shut th fuckup boy ! :L You're soo getting on my nerves(:
@ivon's mommy! meet up soon hao mah?
- Ofcus Hao laa !(: I'm still waitingg for that BBQ dayy down at EastCoast ! Is AhGongg is planningg it (?) Hmphs ..
@Shaqdah to Harvin(: 's Harvin , I saw your conversation already .. ((:
- See that Harvin ! See that ! Omg ! Stop it with all this dramaa laa eh ! :L
@ivon's HAHAS(: (: Cause we nothing to do what. HAHAS(: next time i TAG nice nice at your blog also. LOL(: mommy i miss you so much!!!got miss me? LOL(: meet up soon♥♥
- You thinkingg of spammingg my blog iszit (?) LOL ! Yerlur ! So free one you twoo ! -..- Haiyoh ! Ofcus I got miss youu laa my dear girl ! Who would not . Haiyoh !(: Missyouuu manymany !(: Meetup soon indeed !(:
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- Link niaos Link niaos !(: Laughs(:

Sorry For the late TagReplyy guys(: Cheers !=D

2009-10-16T00:15:00.001+08:00

But only love can say - try again or walk away

But I believe for you and me

The sun will shine one day

So I'll just play my part

And pray you'll have a change of heart

But I can't make you see it through

That's something only love can do

In your arms as the dawn is breaking

Face to face and a thousand miles apart

I've tried my best to make you see

There's hope beyond the pain

If we give enough, if we learn to trust

-OnlyLove; Trademark

Okhayh , so I'm backk bloggingg !(: And I've got photos !=D

(: Damn fun todayy !(: oh , and yes , I'm damn lazy to edit the picture !(: Cus , it's SALINAA ! Anyws , they camee to my placee thenn went str. to the the officee and booked for the bowling , but donthave): Then booked for pool instead(: then went to the gym and dancee(: we were dancing to 'Fire Burning on the Dancefloor' by Sean Kingston (: Damn awesomee(: Then went camwhoringg at the BBQ pit(:

Thenn 4-5 went to playy poool(: Dontwanna go braggingg about it (: Hadd damnn alot of fun thou ! :DD

Then blahblahblahh laa(:

Sevenn , train-ed to Lot1 mam-mam then 9+ then reach homee): Damn tiredd ): Showerr , todayy neverr takee medicinee !! :D shit , and I think I'm not getting any better ):

Wednesday; 14thOct2009(:

Wednesdayy .. MathsPaper2 ! Shit lur ! The paper's damn hard nah ! ): MsChuaKeYingg so set the paperr till damn difficult !): Then summore , mummy,daddy flyingg off to Chinaa niaos Shit .! ): Then nevermindd , afterr my paperr , str. go findd hoe . Cus , I latee with Vanes , then Hoe go say cus yesterday JayWalk with TinaaToh , Bernicee Jovin all then aiyah , I duntknoee laa ! He kao bei kao bu then I likee aiyah just givee . Thenn walk slowlyy to class with her . Blahblahblah . After the paper , then str. go findd Hoe . -..- Then that fuckerr , aiyah duntknoee laa . Then go findd vanessa use her phonee call mummy tell her what happened nah . Then she say , 'Go find him , then tell him your mummy want talk to him' . Then ohkayh nor . Walk walk walk , go Disciplinee room there find him . Then fucker , I have to tell him that mummy flyingg off at 1230 then she need to go in then off her phonee niaos . Nb , he damn stupid siiah . Never take planee beforee meh ?! -..- Stupid , the time then was likee 1156 (?) Dontrmbrr nah ! Actually , she was departingg at likee 130 uh ! HAHAS ! =D Then after that I go say to Hoe uh , 'You want you call my mother askk laa !' Like that then he go say , he don'twant to disturb their trip . zZz . BullShit doll ! Then after that he keep asking me whether I got smokee not . Cus Khir investigatingg smokingg case . Then I keep saying no then he dontwant believeee siiah . Nb , keep asking ! Damn irritatingg siiah . After that , Hoe go check my bag . -..- FUCK ! Then nevermindd .

Went homee with AhMei and AhSheng(: took the long way this time;D then train train train .. Reach the gatee le , go in then at the swimming pool there saw YingLing and friends . Then slack slack slack . Talk talk talk . Then go homee . Showerr , then get dressed . Then cab-ded to the polyClinicc . Damn cheap laa ! It was onlyy 3dollars (: Then go takee numberr niaos wait for someonee . Miss that someonee damn muchh nahh ! Havent met him for YEARS ! (: then finally ask him pei me see doctor then he will pei orh . ): Then he comee talk talk talk with me , and play with my iTouch , then I lie on his shoulders watch him play . Was damn tired ): Then after see doctorr le , he pei me go take med then after that I walk to YewTee , he bus-ed home ): Damn miss him nah ):

Reach YewTee le , then playy with MinLe .

She kicked me in the eye !! ): I'mma go blndd ! Not . LOL ! Then after that , Car-ed homee . (: Then sleep !=D Neverr even study for Physics ! -..- zZz

Yes , that's MinLe , half angmoh and half chinese . -..- Stupid idiot . Go kick me . She's damn naughty eh ! I hope that LeYa's not like her ! -..- Loser !

Ohkayh , I wanna go sleep niaos ! Damn latee niiaos nor !! -..- Shit ! Tmrws got work !-..- fuck ! -..- Damn tiredd !):

Till heree then peepos !(:

w/Love,

SALLYseehuimin!(:

p.s. I miss you ; someonee ): and thankyou someeonee forr acc-ing to the docs(:

p.p.s. I'll reply tags tmrws(: am DAMN tired;DDD sorrys !(:

2009-09-27T17:28:00.000+08:00

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips

Faith and desire at the swing of your hips

Just pull me down hard

And drown me in love

So come on, get higher, loosen my lips

Faith and desire at the swing of your hips

Just pull me down hard

And drown me in love

-Matt Nathanson - Come and get higher !(:

24thSept , was at the F1Rocks concert , the one with DaMouth , SodaGreen , ZhangHuiMei , and JackieCheung . (:

One word ; Awesomee ! It was superr Awesomee !:D

chiong-ed home that day , which made me miss out the photo-taking session with the gang . But we sang the HappyBirthday song for Andre , cus it was his birthday !=D and we had cakee that Angiie and Tiara decorated !

After school ; walked with Roth to the bus-stop outside of BPPri . then like , walked alonee till the LRT station , saw Norris and Ina then slacked with them till my train came , train-ed back to KeatHong with Mustaqim , Cammie and Gummy . But then Cammie and Gummmy got off at TeckWhye , then it was just Aqim and me left . -..- That idiot . Such a gentleman , he sent me home . Hhaas ! Then kept messaging him after that . -..- Reached homee watch tv and eat (: Still got timee neh ! -..- Then rushed thru my showerr , and got dress , left homee at like 4 (?) Ehmm , not suree neh . -..- Trained down to TiongBahru or was it Tanjong Pagar ? Idontrmbr . ): Neh , then walked to Robinson road findd Daddy , and his colleagues . (: Then car-ed to CBD , drank Coffee- Bean , and ate Lasagne . Then waited for jiierh , then do my hair all , Then Car-ed down to FortCanningg !(:

Reached , and looked for the VIP entrance (: We've got VIP passes y'see !(: Then this angmoh guy was likee helping us put on this tap thing-o around our hand . And we were given this landyard with a card thing-o that says ' VIP ; Standard Chartered Bank ' (: Then went up , there was likee , a buffet and all .(: We didnt have to starve thru the whole concert ! =D the good thing is , there's air-con and it's sheltered . But the bad thing is , it's damn farr from the stagee ! Shit . ):

Then me and jiierh decided to squeeze with the crowd at the bottom , so we walked walked walked and squeezed squeezed squeezed thru the crowd to get to th front . (: superr closee ! =D Then we were very very happy !=D then concert concert concert ... Don't want to go on about it (:

End-ed at like , 11+12 ? Duntknoww): I was damn tiredd already lurr ! Thenn car-ed down to Newton Circle to have supper , then went homee . (: DAMN TIRED I tell you . Next day summore got school . Shit ):

Friday (: School + Jalan Rayer ! =D

Went to school as usual , damn tiredd ! Kept yawningg , was planning to sleep thru Phys , but at th end didnt . The bunch kept talking about Jalan Rayer and all ! =D hahas ! Damn cutee lur ! =D Then talk talk talk talk talk , then at the endd , kenee call-ed stayback by shashi ! -..- Shit .

After doing th work that Shashi assigned us to do , Vanessa and me cab-ed back to my place , and she waited for me to shower while she played with my iPod . (: Then after that , cab-ed down to Ain's . Then we were changingg and getting ready and all for Rayer and all ! :D Damn Fun I tell youu !(: Both me and Vanessa wore Ain's baju (: we could fit:D then met the others down at Plaza's Mcdees . First stop ; Raihan's place ! =D There was likee a total of 18people plus me and Vanessa ! (: Damn alot of people lurr ! Everyone wore the Baju besides the boys (minus Syakir) and Angiie . =D So , it was cute !(: But after Raihan's I had to go off ! ): cus I was expected ot be at Suntect by 7 . Then when I reached Mcdees , cus Vanessa wanna change . Mummy called and say I don'tneed go down liaos . Shit . damn dulan I tell you . Then nevermind , asked Vanessa to acc-ed me till my parents comee fetch meee . Then the whole bunch saw us siiah .-..- then likee . aiyah ! Damn omg lur . Then nevermind . Called mummy , at the end , she tell me , they just left Suntect , dulan liao lor ! Then at th end train-ed back instead . On th way , saw th whole bunch wanted to explain but they wont listen , so nevermind , walked to the LRT station then trained home . Thru th whole time I was messaging Mustaqim and Vincent uh . -..- Then reach-ed homee message message messaged , then changed then mummy and daddy brought me to eat at YewTee point . -..- then come home rest rest rest then sleep !(:

w/Love ,

SallySee !(:

p.s. sorry , if the Friday post is damn colourless , cus I damn lazy wanna do anyth to it (:

2009-09-27T16:08:00.000+08:00

You're in a corner , the theatre to show yourself

I got the fire, the desire dropping on the floor

You're a singer , a player with in my soul

Suddenly I've nothing but myself .

It's a mystery to mistreat and let me dry .

It's a really dire not fair to be smooth no more

Am I a loser , and winner in this game .

How can I be free to have my cup of tea .

I should originally be okay

But only when I see you .. Oh Oh Oh Oh ..
-Oh Oh Oh Oh - Sodagreen

I wanna apologize , but , I'm not in the wrong . I wanna talk to her , but I don'tknoe where to start .

I read your blog , over and over again , trying to figure out where did everything go wrong . I'm sitting here , eating my apples and oranges . Msn-ing StathisIoakim , lemme rephrase , 'flirting' with Stat . -..- Argh , and that idiot is getting off soon . ): and I'm thinking whether I should do my art or not . And that idiot went out without me giving him his 'big-hug' back .): Imisshim !): . Laughs(:

Here's the thing sweetcakes , I'mma just print the convo that me and him had out . Okhayh , believe it or not . It's up to you . And here's the other thing , 'GET THE FUCKING FACTS RIGHT FIRST BEFORE YOU EVER TRY TO MAKE YOUR OWN BLOODY CONCLUSIONS !'
You didn't even come and ask me what actually happened and then yets , you are just making your own conclusions . Hmphs , I wonderr . And I just find it cute how you said I was rare(: *sniff-sniff . I think I'm gonna be sick ! ): Shits .

About the Friday thang . Yes , I apologize , I rushed off to early , and I rushed Vanessa too ! And all of you know that daddy works there , and I've got to go find him if I can . And I could that day . But unfortunately , I left an hour too late . When I reached the void-deck , Mummy called that her facial finished , and that maybe I don't need to go there anymore . -..- So nevermind , acc-ed Cheong to change at Mcdees , then Mummy called and told me to stay at Mcdees cus , they will pick me up . Then I asked Cheong to acc-ed me . Then we just slacked at Mcdees , cus I don'twant to go back to meet you'all then leave half way thru again ! Get pissed if you want , cus I can't help it if daddy and mummy's flickle-mindedd ! -..- Urhg , whatev . I need to sleep): Not feeling well at all ! -..-

w/Love ,
SallySee(:

p.s. I mean seriously sweetcakes , don't say that I never explained things (:

p.p.s. Oh yea , you talk ask if you never lied before .

Taggies replies !=D

@JOVIN(:'s 'aiyohhhh ! relink nehh .! ): so long liaoo eh . (: hahah .'
Han-naaaah ! -..- Relinkk liaoo lurr . (actually haven't uhs ) =D
@Huh...'s 'are you sure you didn't do anything wrong for her to distance herself from u?'
I appreciate your thoughtfulness sweetcakes(: But , I mean , after reading her blog , I know what's wrong alreadyy(: Thanks for your 'thoughtfulness anyws(:
@Ping's 'helo'
Hellooooooooo dearr !(: Miss youu nehh ! ): Meetup soon !(:
@Eileen's 'hello mummie(: you change your blogskin so nice(:'
Hhaas (: Yerps2 (: Blogskin changed(: Really ? I'm thinking of changing it again neh ): hmphs . imissyouu lur ! Meetup soon ! =D

TagReply.

2009-09-21T01:27:00.001+08:00

TagReplies (:
@!Debbie's 'Nice post Min ! [:'
Huhr ? Serious ? Hhaas ! Thanks lur thanks !(: and thanks for the spam laa sweetcakes(: Appreciate it much much much ! Laughs(:

imy leas , I really do !(:

2009-09-21T00:58:00.001+08:00

current-mood ; agitated and hurt.
Hello SweetPeeopo !(:

I just adore what Nicole Richie said; 'Hatred is found in the girl next to you; who just told you she liked your hair' !(:

Whatev ! So , anyws , I changed my blogskin ! Ohkayhs , and I'm rather happy about it . (: But , anyws , that's not the whole point of me blogging around here !(: Ofcus , there's stuff for me to talk about(: Laughs .
Ohkayhs , so I'mma just start my 'real' blogging here (:

Does any of you guys know how it feels , when you have your bestfriend thinking that you're a bloody liar when you're not lying at all ? Hmphs , very painful , yeah(: Idon'tknow what I'm doing here blogging . I meant to be all mean and stuff cus , yea , I'm meant to humiliate her and all that kind of rubbish , but all I could think of is things that aren't nice . Shit . ): Ohkayh , but whatev ! She deserves it ! So , I guess , I'mma just be mean and say things that ain't nice ? Iduntknoee . Shit . ):
I don'twant to go on and stuff and say anything about the content or anything , cus both you and I know what's going on .(:
But this is what I've got to say to you hun ;
'The group is already in a mess , and I thought that you were gonna be a true bestfriend and stay by my side and all , I know I'm going out of the topic and all , 'cus I meant to be talking about this other matter but idc ! -..- This concerns both of us sweetcakes ! And I don'tknow what is pulling you so far away from me . And it's hurting me to see you do so . Becus , you've been sucha truee bestfriend for the past 2year and 8months . Even past the Stephen and Tiara dilemma . You've always been by my side and been there to pull me in when I start to weep and make a big fuss in things . You were the one . But now a days , it seems like , you're doing all you can to avoid and pull away from me . Or no wait , everyone is . But it's you my dear girl , it's you that I could not stand nor understand nor hide my feelings to not cough a word about this . Sweety , you've been a dear , and now this . What iszit that I've donee wrong my dear girl ? Becus , I'm practically bleeding in the inside the see you avoiding me and walk away from me everyday ! And when you confronted mr about whether or not he likes me , you were damn happy when he said that he doesn't . Baby , you're blissfully attached . And you guys have been tgtr since , forever ! and that , gives you no reason to be happy for that at all ! Not to mention , he's your ex so therefore , get over it ! He no longer belongs to you ! and nor does he belong to anyone else . I mean , it's like you've all the rights to be happy and all , but not to the extend where you did start jumping about and go telling -a- about how happy you are . Your whole face tells how happy you are , when this concerns your-ex and not your current 'biie' . I've went against my will to humiliate you , becus , you made me damn embarassed ! All because , I know that I still love you and all that kind of rubbish !. Yes , rubbish indeeds . They went from gems to rubbish . Imagine that ! But rmbr this sweety , in my mind , 'iloveyou and other rubbish' but how do you feel towards me ? 'ihateyou and other rubbish' . Did I emphasized hate and the love ? Hmphs , no . I guess not . But I won't . Becus , I realized , it doesn't matter to you now does it ? Becus , just one small matter could pull us apart , then how could we change that hatred back to a love then ? I guess , that's highly impossible . (: But , atleast , I still so glad that you could be happy and live on life normal (: and normal indeed .
imissyou babe . And fyi , iloveyoutwus(:

w/Love
Sals.

p.s. blogskin credits goes to DEBBIECHENQIQI!=D

2009-09-10T14:01:00.002+08:00

Hey,

Don't write yourself off yet.

It's only in your head you feel left out,

Or looked down on.

Just try your best,

Try everything you can.

And don't you worry what they tell themselves

When you're away.

[Chorus]

It just takes some time,

little girl, you're in the middle of the ride.

Everything, everything will be just fine,

Everything, everything will be alright. (alright)

'The middle - Jimmy eats world .'

HurHur ! At Daddy's house now . Finally blogging agains (: Decided against my will to blog , cus I'm damn lazy ! But here I'm blogging again (:

Stupid Daddy showering . Idiot , won't let me eat ! ): 'cus going buffet later . So , he say cannot eat . Asshole . Angry* . Meeting Ivon-nuer and Eileen-nuer and Abigail later , to celebrateee Ivon's birthday !(: HappyBIRTHDAY IVON ~~

Wondering whether I should help daddy clean his house or not , 'cus damn messy ! Nevermind , he come out of his shower already . Idiot , so long ! :L . Now need to do his hair . Haiyer , so short liaos still need to do ! Urgh , confirm laterr latee one lor Meet Ivon all -..- all his fault ! Urgh . -..- Nevermind , I also need to do my hair actually ! wakaka !

w/Love .

SallySee. (:

p.s. Sorry if it looks dull , cus , I damn lazy want to edit (:

p.p.s ; will blogg again tmrws (:

2009-08-31T19:28:00.001+08:00

When one finds a worthy wife,
her value is far beyond pearls.
Her husband entrusting his heart to her,
has an unfailing prize.
Proverbs 31:10-11

There's certainly a cause of every happening . And behind every cause , is the reason .

And baby , I know the cause of the hatred from me to you . But , the reason for everything , fuck baby ! I cant find any ! OhDearLord , and I've got to face you everyday , joke and laugh with you every minute ! OhGods , I really just wanna shout everything about you that I just can't stand about you straight about you in your fugly face ! Uhrgh !

w/Love,

SallySeeHuiMin(:

TagReplies !=D
Jayson♥ ; Thanks sweetcakes !=D
QiQiDEBBIE♥ ; Hurhur . Yeaalur . It's not really bangs leas . Youu better persuadee your mama and papa hors ! D=
Lynn♥ ; Yerp2s that is youu !=D Let's go during the holidays alrights ?! Hurhurs ! Cantwait cantwait !=D Lols !

2009-08-23T23:00:00.000+08:00

Her mouth was an empty cut

And she was waiting to fall

Just bleeding like a polaroid that

lost all her dolls .

'You were from a perfect world

A world that threw me away today

Today to run away'

-Marilyn Manson; Coma White ...

I'm no longer in the right state of mind . No wait , I haven't been in the right state of mind ever since everything began to prompt up . It feels great , this way . It sort of , does I guess ? Hmphs .

w/Love ,

SALLYsee .

p.s. I'm so tired . I just wish for a bed of roses , and I'd be grateful(:

2009-08-20T23:05:00.001+08:00

Thanks for making everything ohkayhs with the group; boy(: Thanks for convincing him; girl !(: Appreciate every part of it(:

2009-08-20T22:40:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I feel I've got to

Run away I've got to

Get away

From the pain that you drive into the heart of me

The love we share

Seems to go nowhere

I've lost my lights

I toss and turn I can't sleep at night

-Marilyn Manson; Tainted Love .

baby;youcanbitchaboutmeallyouwant.youcanbackstabmeallyouwant.butwhaticanttakeis
thatyouaremyfuckingbestfriendandfuckshitbabyicantconsideryouanywherenearbeingmy
bestfriendanymore!i'msorryi'vegottosaysuchthings.butijustduntwanttokeepitinmeanymore!i'msorry.iloveyou;~~not~~

w/love ;

SALLYsee(:

2009-08-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

Marmyy ! HAPPYBIRTHDAY=DD

andd HAPPYBIRTHDAY Singapore

2009-08-08T23:56:00.001+08:00

Forget the times he walked by, Forget the times he made you cry,

Forget the times he spoke your name, Remember now your not the same.

Forget the times he held your hand, Forget the sweet things if you can,

Forget the times & Don't pretend, Remember now he's just your friend.

I owe you many , that I don't owe an other .

And yet I dare say , we are nothing to each other .

Becus , we are none other then just friends .

And nothing other , then just , I guess , friends (?)

Iduntknoee , but I dare say

Eventhou I owee youu so much ,

I duntknoe what to repayy ..

Nor do I know what to do .

I'mma just wait and see .

And hold on to what's left of me ..

w/Lovee ,

SALLYNAAHsee !=D

p.s. I'm sorry for beingg meann the whole day today . I apologize to all my costumers and workmates(:

TagReplies .
IVONnu-er ; Hhaas ! I'm not cutee lur ! Yerp2s , Meetup soon !

2009-08-07T22:31:00.004+08:00

'I've learned that no matter
how good a friend someone is,
they're going to hurt you
every once in awhile
and you must forgive them for that.'

It's sometimes super tiring and disappointing to find out that when youu started with one particular thing , you havee so muchh confidence that you'd makee it look great and nicer at the end , but in th end , people did start to makee bad remarks about it that really hurts and stuff , well I'mma just enduree then): Hmphs .

It was likee a late night , 1145 it was th last time I looked at th clock , and 223am was th next . And the next thing youu know it , it's 5 .): I did my daily routinee as usual , but this timee , I nearly fell alsleep ; and purely , I'm not shocked ! And before you know it , it was 545 , and I was already in school .

-Paradeee-boringg uh ! Stupid , lazy to go into details uhs !

So anyws , I was with random peoplee at random times , (after changing out of Full u) . I had like half of my lunch/breakfast with Alif , and the other half with Shidy . After that , it was time for th Salad and Sandwich competition ! Shidy was one of the judges so it was like , tagg tagg tagg ! They do look mouth-watering at some point , and heard how healthy it was , but soon , I got sick of th look of it , and end up trying th food ! Didn't tried them all , but , yeah , I tried . Some of them were seriously quite nice . And some were rather th ordinary . Had fun ! =D 'duh ! Vanessaa came looking for us , and I brought her over to the NP room to lighten her bagagge . Slacked and went to the parade square . Saw Shidy again , thenn we decided to slack in th discipline room cause we were sweating terribly , and it was air-con'ed in th room ! Shidy and Vanessa took their seats on th sofa , so I took Mr.Fadzil's chair !=D Then I kelt looking at Mr.Khir's stuff . Khir Ramley is his name indeed ! Had some great conversational talk with Shidy after Vanessa left for her photoshoot . Went outside and MsChuaKeYing disturbed me ,): Hmphs . Caught th whole captainball game ; 4B versus Teachers ! Well , ofcus th teachers won ! (:

-SKIP !- superr boringg laa !

From 1230-445 , Zul and I had been nice and so we decided to clean the NP room ! 'cus it was in such a mess ! Terrible ! We received helps from Alif and Sharran ... and kept asking Ma'am Asysah&Ma'am Kahilah about stuffs . Super tiringg leas !): So yeah , did that donee that . I redecorated the room ; darkening the previously done decorations , and just add somee small extraa decos . (: The big box's gone ! Like just GONE ! No laa , cus we clean ! =D Chucked it , and out of th window it went !(: Found alot of sec2's Full Uniform , very angry . Be prepared for a scolding uhs sec2s ! Hmphs ..

w/Loveee ,

SALLYNAAAH !

p.s. I hope that everything will get better !(:

TagReplies!(:

DEBBIElovely !; Thanks for tagging sweetcakes !(:
IVONnu-er !; I'm so not cutee ! Youu aree just being humble !(: either that or it's sacrasim ! Hmphs ...

LYNNsweet-cakes !; I wanna go IceSkatingg !(: I lovee youu twu babyy ! 100 and3% uhs ! And I missyouu tonnes too babeh !(:
VUHNESSAcremee !; Hmphs , Hello Stingy ! =D Anyws , iszit really nicee ? I was hesitating over this and this other Elmo skin , but that was really red so I was like thinking , a 'nono' . Ofcus I have th same tagboard as you , I copied it !=D

2009-08-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

Blogged Blogged Blogged Blogged !

2009-07-28T18:39:00.004+08:00

Every night I rush to my bed

With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to

see you when I close my eyes

I'm going outta my head

Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide?

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies

And I hope it rains

You're the perfect lullaby

What kind of dream is this?

SweetDream - Beyonce .

I've gotten myself into a deeper holee this timee .

w/ ♥

SallySee(:

p.s. Everything seems to be on th brighter end now(:　　　　　　　　　　　

2009-07-27T17:15:00.010+08:00

The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry
On any other day I'd shoot the boy
But your simple toy
Had caused a scene like that
Leave him hanging on the walls
Just a picture in the hall
Like 100 more
Consider this as a gift as you taste him on your lips
And he's making you scream with his hands on your hips
I hope he's leaving you empty baby this is just a fix
For such a simple little whore
When I Get home , you're so dead ; Mayday Parade.

Why can't you come back , and make me scream the way you love me to, when you have your hands at forbidden areas . Th feeling is forever stained there my dear boy . Just touch me one last time ; I beg . And that's all I need . And shoo , of you go , to find that effin' slut , cus I know that she screams in bed with you and I do nothing but scream for the fun of things .

w/♥ ;
SallySee(:
p.s. Let's not make me wait shall we ? Haikal tkdtg sekolar , aku rindu dierr seyh!):

2009-07-26T23:30:00.003+08:00

我曾经爱过这样一个男人, 他说我是世上最美的女人
I once loved this man who told me that I was the most beautiful woman on this earth
我为他保留着那一份天真, 关上爱别人的门
for him I preserved all my innocence and closed my feelings towards other men
也是这个被我深爱的男人, 把我变成世上最笨的女人
It is he that I fell so deeply in love with, who turned me into the most naïve woman on this earth
他说的每句话我都会当真, 他说最爱我的唇
I believed in every word he said to me, that he loved the most my soft lips and gentle kisses
我的要求并不高, 待我像从前一样好
I don’t ask for much, just love me wholeheartedly like you used to
可是有一天你说了同样的话, 把别人拥入怀抱
But one day you said the same lines to another and took them into your arms
胡楊林, 香水有毒

Met up and slacked with Vuhnessah for a well , and while I was having fun with her , I kept checking my phone , awaiting for your msges , but in th end , I got nothing .
Went to meetup with daddy&mummy after that , for th match Liverpool against Lions . Th game was rather expected , but I still got disappointed . During th whole game , I was messagingg Jayson and stuff ! Hahs ! He's damn cute and funny I tell you . But , I was still expecting your msgg; baby .):
Anyws , can any of you guys believe it ? Singapore got nil when Liverpool got 5goals ! Omg ! I was like , 'AtLeast one goal lur !' But nothing , I guess , I was likee , one out of 20 people that was supporting Singapore . Or maybe lesser . Wells , I've got to stay true about my country(:

w/♥ ;
SallySee(:
p.s. I'm missing everyonee , and I mean , everyone. Even NurTiara ,Stephen Marc and MuhdAzini .): No point missing thou , they don't belong to me .(:

2009-07-26T00:11:00.003+08:00

When you told me you loved me

Did you know it would take me the rest of my life

to get over the feeling of knowing

A dream didn't turn out right

When you let me believe that you weren't complete

Without me by your side how could I know

That you would go

That you would run

Baby, I thought you were the one

Your lips

Your face

Something that time just can't erase

Find my heart

'When you told me you loved me - Jessica Simpsons'

Why is it that I just cant get over your smile , get over your touch , nor yourr smell . That super strong gold colored Adidas deodorant it's all deeply stained on my shirt . I smell you everywhere baby , and tell me why ! Imissyouu ; baby . I miss youu alot .

w/♥ ;

SallySee.(:

p.s. I still miss everybody . and it's everyone even people I shouldn't be missing .

2009-07-24T22:16:00.004+08:00

What about now?

What about today?

What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?

What if our love, it never went away?

What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late,

What about now?

Now that we're here,

Now that we've come this far,

Just hold on. There is nothing to fear,

For I am right beside you.

For all my life, I am yours.

What about now - Chris Daughty .

It's th 21st Century .... And that's all I've got to say about everything that is going on , cus I'm sick and tired of doing all thosee explaining and stuffs that I've been doingg for th past few weeks . It's been one whole month , that I've been explaining , and breaking everything down to words . And , I'm donee , sick , and now , dropped dead .

w/♥ ,

sallyy .

p.s. I miss everyone , and everyone indeed .

2009-07-19T22:30:00.004+08:00

In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names
Like Jake or MandyAnd modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard,
You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters
Or they'll knock you down I never felt so lonely,
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this
-Savage Garden , Santa Monica.

Best to sayy nothing at all ..

FuckedUp .

2009-07-14T19:13:00.003+08:00

There’s nothing I can say to you

Nothing I could ever do to make you see

What you mean to me

All the pain the tears they cry

Still you never said goodbye and now

I know how far you’d go

I know I let you down but its not like that now

This time I’ll never let you goI will be all that you want and get my self together

Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life I’ll be with you forever

To get you through the day and make every thing OK

I will be - Avril Lavigne .

I'm in no placee forr me to have ask anything more from my friends as I have disappointed them to th max . Everything I've donee is accounted on my record . All those weird things , and bad things , I duntknoee ; everything I guess . Actually , I shouldn't even be asking anything from my friends , because , yeah ... Reasons . People likee Tiara especially , I guess , she's considered , just a group-mate to me , and no longer like my bestfriend that she use to be .

I miss herr that way , when she did be like 'Fruck laa ' and things like 'Fuckk youu laa Saliinaa' and point her middle finger at me (-'-) and starts laughing . I miss her th way she is , when she'd be likee , 'Eh Saliina , amek kn !' or things like 'Chiibaii siiah ni Saliina' Iduntknoee , it may soundd like a scoldingg , but likee , Iduntknoee , it felt like words of concern and laughter . She's different ... and superr individual . Caught her cryingg today , and couldn't help but stare , and started imagining , 'If onlyy I could be there for her , to lend her my shoulders to cry on , and give herr that hug' . Then I felt a pair of eyes staring , it was Tiara , then I turned back to do maths . I wouldn't want to hug her now , she wouldn't want it , she did kind of like shift away when I moved closer to her anyws . So , no different made there .

Angiie cried too . Oh fuckk , if onlyy I could be there and likee comfort th both of them . If onlyy ......

Shaqdah made them laugh though , but pictures of them taken together with Stephen was still in their minds I bet , some sort like photographic memory I guess .

Saiful was there th whole time hearing me complain about some weird dismays . Laughs(: And he really did somehow make a feel better and all (: Alif was theree likee , holding on to mee , and somehow cheering me up . Thanks youu twu !(:

[[FlashBackk!]]

Weird I find it . I totally forgot yesterday's date . 13thJuly . Yes , that's yesterday's date . That's th date that somehow , me and Tiaraa spilted up . It was likee , yeaa . I really duntknoee how to put what happened yesterday into words that people could understand , but I just found yesterday super ..... weird ; still .

Madee a fool out of myself at Panjang Plazaa outsid DK, cus I kept having tears rolling down my cheeks likee tapp waterr running out of th hosee thing-o . Shaqdahh pulled me in , and hugged me and comforted me .(: Thankyouu Shaqdah . Ain , Alif , Raihan , Elton , Azman was there too . Super embarassing I daree say . But neh , what's done's done . Thenn along camee Alastairr , then I just didn't wanted to look at him . Turned aroundd , and stared at his facee , and started laughing . But thenn went backk cryingg again , Alas' facee didnt workk anymore .): sedih* , thenn likee , Shaqdah pulled me outside of Plazaa and stuffs . Was ohkayh , then replied Tiara's msgg and stuff , thenn went to look for Alas , andd he madee laugh , Farris and Michelle was theree too ! Hhaas , superr embarassing lor , haiyohh . Thenn likee , Alif sent me homee , and likee , he comforted me , and madee me felt ohkayh .

'I finally felt th arms of someone that day . I finally seriously cried on th shoulders of another that day , 'cus I haven't felt anyy for so long .'(:

Thankyouu all (:

Blogpost replies .

'Okay , Salina See Hui Min .
She's been having her downs now. But then I guess not anymore , cause yeahh . She can relate(: .
Babe, whatever youu wanna do or whatever, I'mma respect whatever youu decide. But begging is a no-go for anything . Cause I seriously don't think that begging is a solution to problems.Babe, if you think that he is the only who can make youu happy despite all the flaws that he has, I'm not gonna go against youu, cause I've told youu umpteen times already, whatever youu do, I'mma be happy for youu as long as it makes youu happy and not otherwise. Cliche much . So yeahh , be happy my dear babe(: I love youu ! <3'

Thankyouu babyy!(: Iloveeyouu twu!(: =D Andd yeahh , sorry for th uberr laterr reply . It's likee , y'kno , duntknoee whyy but yeaa(: Youu alreadyy know th outcomee thing-o(: Duntneed to reply much rights ? Hhaas ! =D Thanks babee for being there for me though , when I needed youu the and everything . Youu wereee being such a dearr , and I duntknoee what I cann do to repayy all those that youu've donee for me(: Thankyouu babee , Iloveeyouu(:

Girl , stop stressing over your relationships ohkayee ? They're your beginnings , and you'll find someone else to have your happy ever after with . I know everyone's getting annoyed and pissed off with you for doing that to both of them , but im sure you had your reasons . Even though it was wrong , im sure you learnt your lesson alreadyy girl . Learn from your mistakes and move on ! Thanks for counselling me and all during school and chinese lessons and all . Ily too !

Thanks forr understanding me babe ! And yes , ofcus I've learnt my lesson . I've already been burnt onee , I'm not gnrr be stupidd and burn myself again now am I ? Not so stupid I guess(: Thanks forr being there for mee too !(: Both youu and Shaqdah makes such a dear ,(: Thanks for beingg there and everything for mee (: I loveeyouu soo muchh too ! I think that my friendship with them is likee fuckedup laa . But , I guess , everything will be ohkayh soon!(: Duntworry baby !=D

♥

2009-07-10T17:00:00.006+08:00

Sudahlah sayang,
I don't believe you.
I've always known that your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.
So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.
-Kantoi - Zee Avi .

All of these , all this lying and hiding , I'm th cause of everything . And when situations like this come into place , there's gotta be someone that takes th blame right ? I'm willing to . Cause , I'm th cause of all this , and there's nobody to blame but me myself and I . Atleast , at th last breath , I became truthful to both parties .

Stephen and Azini . My 2ex boyfriends , because , I twu-timed them together , and I'm in no place to beg for their return . And all I wanna say is that , I do love th both of youu and I still do . Baby , th word's love . And I know that none of youu will be my friend anym . Not to mention , just talk to me . But atleast , please forgive those that know about this 2-timing . That's th most I could ever ask for . It was never their fault , it never was . It was all mine(: , I duntwant to cast th blame on to others , and say it's their fault when it's never . Please , as youu may read this , I begg for yourr forgiveness .

If any of youu guys aree wondering , yes , I cried , and yes , I'm still cryingg . I'm wondering whyy I've cried so much . Whyy I'm still cryingg and in pain , but then at th endd , last night , I slept at 2+ , telling MingHan everything . He made me stopped and ponder , wondering whether in th first place , it was worth to take th risk to twu-time him no actually them . Ohkayh , It's my fault and all , and I shouldnt have , but , what's done is donee . I mean , stuff . Yes , I apologize , I'm sorry Azini and Stephen , I love youu guys ! Andd I still do . 'god , words are seriously just so hard to believe . I mean , I know that myself , so , it doesnt matter if youu guys dunt believe me(: Smiles .

Anyws , I'm here to apologize(: Apologize lemme say , especially Stephen&Azini , ohFuck , I'm in such terrible situation with my friends right now . And I really do regret what I've done . I mean , I dont knoe how to face th both of youu ! I mean , seriously . And I guess , nonee of youu guys will forgive me right ? I mean , esp for what I've done and stuff . Th truth is , I've always wanted to tell youu , I mean th both of youu , youu guys cann askk Shaqdah . I've neverr said anything , becus , I dunt daree . I mean , I dunt daree to sayy anything about everything . I didnt know wheree I'd start even if I hadd ever had th guts to say anything . I'm sorry for keeping all this from youu guys , and I know that this is not going to lead us anywhr , but I just want to let youu guys know this . It's ... Iduntwant to keep it in and every(: I really want to say everything out aloud and let everyone hear this , becus , my friendship and relationship with everyone now seems so fuckedup . But , I'mma be strong , and tahann , becus , I'm at th downs now , and I'll be going up again . Maybee I havent fell to th most bottom part , but I know , I'mma keep falling , thenn gnr finally wakeup and climb back to th top again , wheree I've always been !

I just wanna sayy , I'm sorry Stephen ,&I do lovee youu (: I'd miss th fun times with youu , I'd miss call youu babee / babyy . I'd miss how youu'd send me home and we did takee photos tgtr . I would really miss , recieving yourr msgs and asking about my day and everything (: Thankyouu , for being there for me for th past few weeks(: I still rmbred th dayy whenn I told youu that I'd agreed to tryy it out withh youu , youu were likee soo ghey and soo happy , and I was like asking youu whether youu weree soo happy that youu couldd jump about yourr house . Babyy , you're indeed one of a kind ! Andd I miss youu .

Andd to Azinii , I'm at my deepest regrets to havee done so much things to have hurted youu . Ever since December 11 . I rmbred that dayy by th carpark and everyth . I still rmbred everyth that happened that day . And thenn th following days after that . Youu know what I'd miss th most ? I'd miss yourr touch , andd yourr msges (: 'sitting&talking' by th staircasee , and how youu came overr to my placee , and ate my cooking , and youu said it tastee worser then yours ! Meaniee !): Thenn how we drank beer with Raihan and Shaqdah . Andd smokingg at th smokingg area and everything .(: Imissyouu babyy , and get well soon . I know that youu're sick !): Go see a doctor !

♡

Mr. DTE & Ms. DDG ! (:

2009-07-09T23:00:00.005+08:00

Can't swallow our pride

Neither of us wanna raise that flag

If we can't surrender then we both gonna lose

What we had , Oh No .

Both hands tied behind my back with nothing .

Oh No , these times when we climb so fast to fall again

I don't wanna fall for it now .

BattleField - Jordin Sparks .

She's my sweet-love . And sweet-love ain't doing ohkayh . Well , I reckon , everyone has their ups and downs . And apparent , she's been in her 'downs' lately . Everyth doesn't seem right for her . No homework done , no nothing . Well , she's just been in her downs . She msged me , just about an hour plus ago , 'Babee)':' then that 'sedih' face . Ofcus , I just gave her a call straight away ! Shee was crying , while I was there , having so much fun . Ofcus , I was laughing , and having my fun . But I could hear her woes and tears . And I stopped . And , I just bladed away from my friends . I just kept asking her what's wrong and everything . But she just keep saying that she's kind of fine . When I know that she's not . Ofcus , it turned out to be about her Mr. DTE guy . I heard her woes , and I heard her cries . And it was so painful for me in absorb all this . I just felt like crying with herr . I bet , it felt like living hell for her . I know that she needs to have th accompany , and needs a shoulder , but I'm so farr . And it was so late ! I really wished that I could be there to wipe away all her tears , and bring her back to her feet again . But as youu all know , I'm not really good with words . And she knows that too ! And seriously , I mean , there was so much things for me to say , but everything just doesn't seem to came out right . At th end , I said all th negative point about Mr. DTE . But , I felt that I had th need . But , ofcus , I didn't seem to make her feel better . I was practically scolding her . To think about it . I feel bad . Real bad . But , sometimes , I think that she needs to wakeup ! To Ms. DDG , I know that Mr. DTE is her encourager and her sunshine maker and so on and so forth . But , it's like , Iduntknoee . LongStory .

And to Ms. DDG ; my Sweet-Love .
Sweety , no matter what , you'll get back on your feet again . It's only a matter of time . A time will tell sweety . Just be confident , and believe in yourself . Pleasee remember that I lovee youu and always do . I'd be there for you whenevr youu need me . 'cus , youu were theree when I needed youu . (: Andd youu've been such a great friend baby . Iduntknoee what to do to repay all yourr greatness , care and concern . Even your scoldings . I could feel that yourr scolding aree all for th best . (: And , sweety . I duntwant youu to feel hopeless , nor do I want you to feel that it's your lost that you&him are over . It's his lost ! Give him a those big DDG smiles , and make him feel miserable for leaving you . So that he cann feel that it's his lost , that he has let go such wonderful and great present that god and given him . Eventho , I know that God talked to him , and told him that he needs his 'inner-peace' and everything . But sweety , trust me . It's his lost . I know that I told youu that it's both your losts . But , now to think about it . It's his lost .(: Because , you are th best-damn thang that could have happened to him ! Stand up , and bring yourself together . GheyGang will be there to support youu and be yourr wall to lean on .(: Because , you've been sucha great girlf . And sweety , I know that youu aree irreplacable .(: ILOVEyouu girl .(: Get Well soon .

xoxo

Written with Love ,

Sallynaah . (signed)

books

2009-07-07T12:15:00.001+08:00

Having Papa 'S's class now . (aka , Mr Shashi)

Her Life.(:

2009-07-03T16:41:00.007+08:00

You were talking to her
But messing with me
It's finally clear
You're blurring the lines
Are you disturbed?
Oh, now you care
Why do you race through my red lights?'
'HeyMonday - How do you love me;

I'm here , once again . But , this time , I'm not to talk about me . But I'm here to talk about her life . Ohkayh , it must be rather shocking . I mean , my blog , but it's going to be about th life of another . Well , whatevr . I'mma just type whatevr comes to my mind.(:

11thDec2008 Ohkay , if you're pondering , yes . It's their date . The date before they brokeup that is . It's rather tormenting I dare say . I mean , th love from her was not strong enough , for her to accept him yet . Not at all ! But , she did . Becaus , love could be cultivated . I mean , that's indeed true . Ohkayh , her feelings indeed , cultivated . but , before their one month . They broke up .

I mean , I know her well . Like th back of my hand . But , It's just that , sometimes . I found her hard to understand . She says that she misses him . And th feeling for him is getting stronger and stronger every day . But , how could you believe the words of a philanderer ? I mean , I couldn't . But I'm her bestfriend . Wells , they got back together . But she had been so stressed . And for what you may ask . Cupid practically got her in a chokehole ; 4boys went after her at th same time . I mean , that's what she told me . I'm just saying whatevr she told me . But though so , imagine being in her situation , your ex (th dec guy), your bestfriend , your other ex , and this other guy (calefare) . Not to mention , you've been waiting for your ex for the past half year . Ofcus , you'd choose no-one but your ex rights ? Not to mention , she's those people that loves to give guy high hopes and not to mention , a major flirt . And , ofcus , she doesnt like to see guys whum like herr like kindof , get heartbroken right ? So , ofcus . She doesnt really reject any . Besides her other ex , cus they should seriously just stay as friends . I'm so not joking ! (:

Anyws , so , she rejected th other ex , and stop contacting that calefare guy . And , went on to accept her ex . I mean , I find them sweet . And shee keeps missing him , no matter what . It's like , she did never get sick of looking at him . And , she did start missing him a few minutes after one departs .

12thJune2009 that's their new date . I mean , I do envy them . They're th sweetest couple . Eventho , he's not really boyf material , I still find him sweet , in msgs . Maybe not in real life . I mean , really . He'sah malay , just for th info .(: Oh , have I forgotten to mention that she'sah chinese ?. I mean , he would send messages like ; '... haiz . I really miss youu y'kno so much that no word can describe it .' I mean , it's like , normal for you girls out there . But for a girl whom is a philanderer . Who do you think would say such things to her ? I mean , I could seriously feel that he's serious about her , and really loves her alot . And doesn't give a damn about her past. I could even feel my eyes turning green . (Green-eyed) while typing this . Seriously . Hhaas (: I'm super serious ! But , I could feel that this relationship would not move on , and go far , when she first told me . They've been fighting alot , about th tiniest matters . Okhayh , maybe for me , and for her , it's indeed th tiniest matters of them all laa !(: Anyws , lemme think , major fights over th most tinist , like , how one of his new friends , like herr as in , like her as a crush . And that guy , asked her to be his girlf , and blahblahblah . Ofcus , she's like thinking , 'Iduntwant him ! Disgusting!' Youu guys understand what I mean by that right ? (: I duntknoe how to go on to th next part . I duntknoe how to explain/say what she had allowed him to do . But , I've got to say this , it involve some heavy touching .

3rdJuly is th day he and her first BOYF#1 broke up . I mean , it was he who asked for it . I mean , seriously . I rmber , having this msg , that she sent me , that he sent to her other friend , this message slowly spread to me .

'I've realized that I've been doing things that is sinful for her . I let what we have blind me and by doing so , I do things that I regret .. Maybe it's my fault also , But I realized my mistake and I know that I duntwant to make it again . Youu cann say that I can resist . But I know that I cant becouz I'm blind'

Does anyone know how to interprete this message ? A sin (?) regrets (?) blind (?) .. I duntknoe what is going on . I've abstracted this small part from one of his friend's blog ;

'Love is still Love , but if there'sah sin involved ........ ' could anyone link th twu messages together ?

Then , this is th breakup msgs . And I mean , Iduntknoe why I'm rather affected I practically cried for her . Seriously , she was pouring her heart out by her bedside where they slept . Laid on th pillow where he laid his head . Covered herself with her blankey where he'd hid and laid at that exact same spot where he laid and played dead . She could still smell his scent . She could still feel his presence . And could feel his arms wrapped around her waist . This is what he sent her ;

'I think it will be better if we remain as frens .. I still love you but th spark from the last time is just not there .. I'm sorry if I disappointed you again and again .. I duntwant to make youu feel paranoid or sad again so I think it's better if we just remain as frenz '

She replied ;

'Thankyou ; if that's what you want thou . I duntwant what we have to be thrown in th drain . But if you wish&hope for that then , I'll just stay true .'

He said ;

'Yes .. That's what I want ..'

She left nothing , pain&anger overcame her . and said ;

'There's 8people in my group that knows about the you&me that we were just a few minutes ago . Did you knoe , 7 disagreed with me , telling me to breakup with you . Cus , your innocent face coveredup what has come of you today . They fear that I might hurt you . That 1person that believed in you , to be strong , loyal and truthful , is Rokiah* . She believed that it was me that ended up hurting you , and she's th one that has been keeping my feeling so true . Of all th8people , majority of the time , they disturbme . They say your dismays . And yets nothing has changed in my stands . But at th end , it's always innocent faces that ended up hurting th ones that were meant to be th convict ! It was hurtingme so much ! And Silly* , he's been encouraging me , being by my side , to guide me along this path so new and geniue for me .
Baby , youu are indeed fickled minded .

Throughout th days with you , I've really learn how to cherish&appreciate those whum love me . And as I cherish&loveyou . I got hurt indeed . And I kept it silent . And now it's already killing you ?! My 3rd ever serious guy ! Youu've changed my thinking about boys , and now , we are just back to square1 .'

What I found was that , it'sah waste , such relationship , but such short period .

If that guy is reading this blogpost right now ! I just want to say this to you ,
'I fuckin' hate you ! I trusted youu in to hurting my girlf ! And yet , that's what you've done ! Hurt her ! I bet you dunt even feel hurt at all ! Did you even know that she waited for youu for half a year ! Uhrgh ! Youu just practically duntcare about her ! If youu say that you duntwant her to feel paranoid nor sad , then whyy must you do such things ! Now , she's thinking you really do have something with yourr 'akak' I dunt care whether you guys have a age difference of 2effin' years ! But youu still hurted herr ! And now ! She's feeling so effin' hopeless ! Thanks to youu ! I fuckin' hate youu ! Uhrgh ! Go awayy ! Youu better stayy away from herr ! But I know that she still loves youu and will await for yourr comeback ! But I want you to stay away !'

The Truth .

2009-06-21T22:04:00.014+08:00

I'd take another chance, take a fall

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat .

But that's nothing new, yeah yeah

I loved you with the fire red, now it's turning blue

And you say sorry like the angel

Heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid ,

It's too late to apologize , it's too late .
Apologize - One Republic ft Timberland

Date; 19thJune2009

Hello Beautiful people of Earth .

Ohkay , I'm backk blogging(: Cus , Steph' miss my posts !(: Hhaas ! Youu do dunt youu=D . Ohkay , since I came back blogging , ofcus I got photos !(:

Okhayh , I'm done uploading(: Superr lazyy lurr . ): I still got thrillions of photos somewhr in my comp , but I superr lazyy nk upload uhs(: Hhees , sorry .! =D

Ohkayh . Friday ! Wokeup early , (somehow) at I think 11 , messaged Vanessa and Angiie , to confirmed that we are meeting . Thenn I had to wait for a super longg timee till babe(stephen) camee to my busstop and meet me . yes , if took youu forever babee . So , as I was saying . Yeaa , Friday , so likee we waited for awhile till Vanessa and Angelika reached my busstop . Took 188 to th IMM busstop , and went to something something building , to get my phonee . Oh ! Did I mention that my C905 was at th servicing center ? Piss me off siiah ! It was spoilt . So yeaa , I went to collect my phonee . In th meantime while my phonee was servicing , I had to use somee random phone that SE had lend me . I dropped from a 8.1MegaPixel to a 1.3MegaPixel . It was embarassing and hilarious ! Trust me ! It's those that are no longerr selling types . It was embarassing ! ):

Anyws , so ... We went to get my phonee , we saw somee kidd in th lift , he was soo hyper . I mean it's likee , he was . Iduntknoe those few words that babe used on his blogg , soo , go http://www.penmaciswatchingyou.blogspot.com/ <- That's babe's blogg.(: Yeaa , his recent post was about that kiddo . (: Youu guys owee to readd his blogg .(: Hhees . Superr cool . We kept laughing about it , then I tried my best to stop myself , cus it's like really mean and stuffs .): I'm not mean ! Ofcus , cus , I'm 'Oh-My' Saliina!(: That's what makes me ; mee !(: Vain-Muchh ! (:

Ohkay , so after collecting my phonee , we went IMM to have lunch (: sedap* ! It was at some HongKong Restuarant , and like , I ate , curry-chicken with rice , and nessa had wanton-noodles , angiie had Macau fried rice with chicken chop ! =D Babe didnt eat . ): Duntknoe why . Oh-wells , I made him blanjah* us Mayo-Fries(: It was like , Fries ! with Chilli and Mayonnaise in a saucer . Trust me , it was like , crispy , and very oily . Super unhealthy , but like to me , I find it nice ! But unhealthy): Ohkayh , I couldnt finish my Curry Chicken , but I managed to finish my rice ! (: Th gravyy was nicee ! Superr sedap* ! But like , I didnt eat th chicken nor th potato . ): Cus , I guess , I was too lazyy to eat ): Hhaas ! We had like , Milk-Tea with Grass Jelly , th 3girls did , Babee just drank this weirdd drink(: Dunt rmbrr th drink's name): How sadd . Hhaas ! tklaas !(: I'm still that happy person . Ohkayh , so I was kind of rushing them to eat ! 'cus I was gnr be late for work ! Like UHH ! And at th end , I was really late for work . Theyy sent me to work !(: And I kept talking to Vanessa about random thing-os , (: SECRET ! Hhaas .(: Then I kissed them goodbyee(:

-SKIP!-

Date ; 24thJune2009 .

I went WildWildWet with Ivon and Eileen ! Met watermelon quite early , then went Westmall to eat Mos' . Ivon was at th 'BatokMrtStation . Then they watch me eat Mos' while we waited for Melvin to bring ah-Girl de ez-link card . She was apparently rushing out of th house that she totally forgotten about her ezlink): Ohkayh , not to mention that th day was raining . Yes , it was a very rainy day . Then , we took th train from 'Batok down to Pasir Ris , then we ate at th PasarMalam* theree . I think th PasarMalam* is permanet laa . Like , I mean that th PasarMalam* won't move around onee laa . It will always be thrr(: So , I ate SiewMai* , watermelon ate nugget , then ah-Girl ate WanTon* Hhaas ! Received a bite of their food(: took duntknoe what bus to DownTown East . Then reached WildWildWet ! It was still raining , but then we could still go in and play !(: Changed and got down to business !=D

We went to th 'playground' thang-o and played on th slides ! Wooh ! Superr funn ! Not to mention , Watermelon was superr hyperr lur ! Hiayoh . Duntknoe what to do with her also ! Hhaas !(: Then talked about going to Escape , with th whole fam ! plus , watermelon , cus she became one of my daughters too ! Now , I've got Weiping(oldest) , CheongHeng(Ping's Husband!) , Firdaus(2nd) , Herinna(Fir's wife!) , Saiful(3rd) , Ika(Saiful's wife!) , Eileen(4th) , HaoJie (Eileen's Husband!) , then YOUNGEST! is Ivon(5th) . Wahh shagg , onlyy Ivonn singlee laa . Hhaas !):

Did anyonee realized that I didnt color th people's namee ? Cus , I'm too lazy ! ): Hhaas ! Shagg ! Sorry laa , if it's not colorful , very th lazy leis ): Superr Sherk ):

Ohkayh , So , I hadd superr alot of funn at th whrr uhs , uh ! WildWildWet ! (: WOOH !

Iloveyouu ; Ivon&Eileen !

Afterr that , we trained backk to th where , BukitPanjang , cus Ivon's Mummy missed Ivon's Daddy alot . Superr alot laa , she was beingg such a nuisance . Hhaas , slept on th way back . And slacked with Ivon's daddy for awhile(: Then trained home , while Ivon bused home): Shagg ! Hadd to leave her alone):

Reached homee andd likee , superr tired!): slept and was working th next day ! (I think!)

Goodnight !(: Iloveyouu all !(:

c.a.n.t.

2009-06-11T21:42:00.002+08:00

Not Blogging For the time Being ..

Sorry guys , esp. Stephen . (:

c.a.p.t.i.o.n.l.e.s.s

2009-06-07T21:27:00.003+08:00

'We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to
And live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were
Supposed to meet instead
I found this letter and this is what it said'
-Colin Raye - Love Me

Friday 5thJune (?)

I don't rememberr what happenedd on Thursdayy , onlyy rmbredd that I received a phone call from WeiJian askingg whetherr I'd like to workk in the morningg , thenn realizedd that Sherill snitched the phonee awayy from him , so she started askingg who's this and stuff like that .

Woke up at likee , 730 . Workingg at 8 . At the end I was earlier then WeiJian . Hahas ! So , I was late by 5mins , cus daddy sent me to workk . (: Had to cook and packed Hashbrowns the wholee timee . Cus stupidd Jenny doesnt let me do counterr . What a bitch . Found that she's ratherr motherly; how cute . (: Noraa camee to work . Superr pissed , cus likee , she kept makingg me drop baskets full of hashbrowns and likee , I injuredd my hand . )': Mom (Monica) camee to workk too ! Superr Happy , cus I Love Her ! =D Saw Aiin walk pass Mcd , and likee I shoutedd her namee , but likee , shee 'blur blurr' , turned heree and there , and still didnt noticee me . ): Kept laughing at WeiJian cus he had to packk approx. 10boxes of coke glass . Pity him big timee ! ): MingYao&I kept laughing at him ! =DD Hahas , but I'd ratherr packk those coke glass thenn cook hashbrowns . Trust Me . -.-' Ended work at likee , 130 instead of 12 ! I was likee , feeling so omgg lur ! Cus I was meant to go home straight so that I could shower and go to MarinaSq with my mum for herr Facial at NewYorkNewYorks . Saw Aiin outside Mcds , all alonee and stuff . So I teman-ed her for a while . Then likee I had to go . Saw Shaqdah&Raihan and like , i step as if I didnt know her . Realized that she was screamingg my name . So , didnt want her to feel paiseyh . So I just went to her . She hugged me real hard ! And kissed my cheeks too ! (: ILOVEHERand Ain too! ! 'duh . Went home , and showered . Changed and went out with mummy down to Marina . Waited for her for 2hrs ++ . While waiting , used lappy for an hourr . and at th endd , it died ! cus , no battery . ): (*SKIP !) Dinnered at 'Pariss' at MarinaaSq , that buffet Restaurant at Lvl2(: with th whole fam ! Bro was there too ! =D superr happy !(: cus , i Miss Him (:

Saturday; 6thJune.

woke up at 11 . Woke at 1145 , went work , then saw Star* (eeeee) , buy Filet meal , medium no salt , coke no ice . Msged 'von asked whether she's planningg to comee work or not . Then at the endd , she say she not comingg . 'cus , her dad's havingg some business parteh !(: At the end I was alonee at mac !): TIll Muqtasid came to work .!(: Actually , WeiJian&MingYao was there , just that we didnt talk much . Daddy&Mummy (WyeFu&Sophia) was there too . Just , never talk . ): Had to packk Coke Glass , better thenn cookingg fries (: Shaqdah&Raihan camee , cus Shaqdah misses me and wants to meet me !(: Kept walking to Lobby to check on Shaqdah found her alone !): Asked for break then , breaked with herr .!(: Ordered a DCB (doublecheeseburger) Meal Upsize , DoubleCheese w/o pickles and onions . small Coke w/o ice , Large Fries w/o salt (: superr nice ! =D cus , I shared them with Shaqdah(: shouted her hot fudge sundae (: then like , she ranshacked my bagg !(: listened to the songs on my phone !(: I could so tell that she was bored !): Then she went home at likee 430+++ , with my phonee , andd likee came backk at 7+ just in timee to return my phonee !(: In the Meantime whilee she was away . Servicee in till damn jialet i tell youu . The queue reached th openingg of mcd . !): Actually before she left , I becamee Runner cus WeiJian wanted to pack the coke glass): shagg , he stole my jobb away from me ! ): Stealer ! hahas !(: Had fun laughing with Andanaa , and Banuu . Laughed about Star* and Noraa . Hahas ! The way one walks and th way one talks . Woooh ! Had fun ! (: Then saw Sakinahh&Shamsiah not tgtr ofcus , (: they were with their siblings y'see . hees !(: Ohkay , thenn Azinii came to work . Thenn we didnt talk till likee , I kept askingg him 'What Laa !' Hees , at th endd . I kept quarrellingg with him when servicee in and he&I were both runners . (: What was moree shagg was that , there was no fries crew ! Damn shagg lur ! ): Workk till 810 . ): Mom didnt allowed me to work till 815 cus , 815+1min then I'd be workingg for 8hrs ! And 8hrs=OT (overtime!) so , didnt get to workk forr 8hrs str . ): Sadd !): Lepaked with Shaqdah for awhile!): Had to go home cus my fam was waiting for me to eat dinner .!(: Reached home and went to 253 for dinner , I ate beef Steak ! Was super hungry y'see . And likee , yea . At the end , Daddy wants to go for a drive . So he drove passed 3condos , all in town . The Sail, Marina Bay , and some condo in bugis . Planning to settle in town y'see . !(: Reached home at likee 12 (?) Idk . Idc . (: slept .

Ohkayy , am superr tired now!): wanna sleepp!! (: soo . I'm updatee it moree tmrr !(: Till heree thenn !(: Loves .

H1N1 p.o.s.i.t.i.v.e

2009-06-03T17:59:00.006+08:00

Me and my friend saw a playtypus
Me and my friend made a comic book
And guess how long it took
I can do anything that I want , cause look
I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome , no metronome
And I can see your face on the telephone
On the telephone, on the telephone .
- Flobots , Handlebars ,

Stephen said that he prayed for me . And prayed hard that I would turn out to be swine negative . And boy , how I wish that I'mma H1N1 positive now . Things has changed so much that I think that me living in this world is so worthless . Hold on , is that even the right world ? -.- It's like , I don't turn out to make a big part into peoples lifes . I mean , even if I'd ever kind of like , make a tinyy winyy part into people's life , I'd turn out to be rather , irritating them or like doing something negative and not positive , and like making them happy . Instead , I turn out to make them mad . Great ! Don't you think (?) I mean , I don't to turn out to be the person that everyone doesn't want in their group . They're showing their faces and faking being ohkay with me and like ending up they're backstabbing me and everything else . Ohkay , I just don't know what's wrong with me this whole day . Just wanted to meet up with several people , and end up getting disappointed . I'm tired enough . How I wish that I could just sleep and like practically don't wake up at all . Y'kno , I feel like turning back in life , and checking about all those things that I did that was just so significant . So 'wow' , that in the future I've something to share with my kids . 'Pfft , if I'd ever get that far . But the thing is , I so did not do anything significant . It's like , I'd turn out to be making people angry or irritated . I never did anything to make people happy . It always turns out to be the opposite . And why's that ? Cus' I'm so full of myself . It's like , I can never get enough of talking and talking and just plain talking . It's weird I'd find things . It's even weird how I find myself . You know what's the weirdess thing I'd ever find about myself . It's the fact that I can never get tired of talking . The second weirdess , I dare say , I never fail to shock people . I mean , to a certain extend that is . It's like , I don't know . It's different , weird . Combination of everything . (?) I don't know . It's confusing ; seriously . I don't even remember what I was meant to type and all . My mind's blank . Oh , you know what ? Forget it .
[WishList] Go escape/www with Ivon , Vuhnessa , Weiping , Eileen , CheongHeng , Haojie (?)
Meetup with MariaAngelika , MohdHaikal , NurTiara , NurulShaqdah , Nurul Ain ,
AndreNg , VuhnessaCheong , MarcStephen .&Co .
Goingg backk to Sydneyy and Go-Out with Kivi , Shirley , Vivien , Rufina , Emily , Karen , and co . (:

Th day that I met up with Weiping , Eileen and Ivon !! Vanessa tagged along too ! Just that she went the other way . (:

Met up with them then keep forcingg HJ to hold my bagg ! (: In the end , he hold my bag from his schh , back to Gombak ! He take my bagg till damn 'shuang' I tell youu ! Summore , inside my bagg was Maria Angelika Velasco Villiamor's birthday present ! (: theyy were asking what if my bagg drop and everything drops out ?! ;ooo , I'd stop , stare and laugh ! (:

Till here ,
♥

m.i.s.s.i.n.g.

2009-06-02T21:58:00.004+08:00

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare.

The shadow in the background of the morgue

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

And in the night we'll wish it never ends

We'll wish this never end.

-I Miss You, Blink182

8hrs and 46mins .

That's how long I've been online . Yes that's how long ! I was meant to be at the science centre , for the science workshop for I think , Chemistry . And like , I'm rotting at home like there's no other thing to do . Hold on , there is nothing to do . Jees , and I wonder why .
If I wasn't sick , I would have taken the opportunity to went for the shooting competition coming up for NPCC , yes , I'm in Npcc . And like , I could of went to today's science workshop for whatever subject it's . You know why ? It's because , I just miss everyone so much ! People like Gheygang and the whole bunch !
[Current Status; Stuffing a thermometer in my mouth!(:]
Oh& hey ! My temperature went down a little . (:
Anyws , I just miss the whole bunch super much lur . Havent seen them ever since , 21stMay after our Math Paper2 (?) Or was it not ? I don't remember . Omg ! Ohkay , well that's them ! .

Imysm ! (imissyou(guys)so much!
'I wanna meet MariaAngelika, MohdHaikal , NurulShaqdah, NurulAin, NurTiara, VanessaCheong, AndreNg, MarcStephen, &&co.'

I hope that I could really meet up with you guys tmrr . Really miss you guys . Like seriously. It seems forever ever since we last meet up . Just want to meet the whole bunch like right now ! And hug you guys . But like , I dont think I'd touch you guys , laterr my germs pass to youu uhh ! (Eeyerr.) Hahas . GheyMuch . I just miss youu all laa , kay ?
Some of them went to Queenstown to make the class-tee just now , if only I could be there. (: I wonder how much fun I've missed out having to go overseas like that . And now , having this sickness . I really miss them . Alot , and I wonder , whether they'd miss me too . But , I don't regret going to Taiwan at all . I had fun there . But , I'd had fun if I didnt go to Taiwan , I would of had the same amount of fun at Singapore with the bunch . Oh well , what's done is done . I can't rewind in time and stop myself from going to Taiwan , now can I ?. Pfft , what a stupid question . Haiis , I miss everyone . ):

Till here thenn (: I just miss youu guys so much !(: .
♥

38.49'C

2009-06-01T21:06:00.004+08:00

'When it's not worth dying for?

Does it take your breath away

And you feel yourself suffocating?

Does the pain weigh out the pride?

And you look for a place to hide?

Did someone break your heart inside?

You're in ruins '

21guns, Greenday.

sunday; 31stMay(?) 2009

8:55am .
i wokeup, feeling cold and sweaty. and like, i just took my temperature , cus i could feel that my cheeks are burningg ): it turn out to be 38.49'C . Then I starting sleeping in the living room, and like i started sweating even more ! My whole back was likee effin' wet lur ! Ate 2tablets of panadol , and like i think my temperature went down. I took my temperature ; i think , every 15mins (?) and like , wooh ! the temperature went down(: super happy !=D .

[[Flashbackk!]]
i think it was saturday; 30thMay(?) 2009, that there was this someone that confessed to me . I just dunt believe him . it's like, c'mon ! how could I ? haiyerr , hackcaree lur !(: 'skip2'

my temperature was still high at night , and my parents kept asking whether i'd like to see the doctor , and i was like , 'no, i'm fine(:' went home and slept till 459am! superr early . Went out of my room and saw my dad !(: 38.41'C. Then my dad was like , 'see the docs first thang in the morning, and go to bed now' so i went to bed , and mummy woke me up at like 855am(?) i was just like SUPER tired!! Drove to lot onee and went to raffles medical to register , and found out i've to wait superr long until it's my turn): so we went to coperation, it's a clinic near my placee , and likee great ! no one was theree ! So i was like the next person to see the doctor ! (: superr happy (: dunt hav to wait . Went in to see th doctor ; Dr. Quek . =D and likee , he gavee me 5days MC , cus i told him that i've got schh the whole week .(: he was like , 'If by Friday your fever still doesnt go down, then youu better call 993; a special ambulance for H1N1 cases.' I was likee effin' shocked lur ! haiyerr . Now I cant go out of my house . I was meant to meet up with the whole bunch on tuesday. but like, i couldnt even get out of my place ! i miss the whole bunch ! ): i havent seen them ever since the 21stMay, besides Ain (: but i still wanna see her ! (: I miss everyonee lur ! i want to meet everyonee lurr ! i miss everyone . i miss my workmates too . ):

♥

t.a.i.w.a.n

2009-06-01T17:35:00.003+08:00

'I've found out a reason for me

To change who I used to be

A reason to start over new

and the reason is you'

The Reason - Hoobastank

I just realized I didnt post for a super long time ! ): hees , and i'm like posting a makeup post. =D

I'm back at Singapore and likee the first and last person i called before i left and reached

was NURUL AIN BTE MOHD KAMIS ! ohkay , and the only reason was because i only rmbred her number

in the whole entire gheygang . Besides angiie and haikal's old number that is. (: hees . my bad lur ! haiyoh .

sorry lo . ): it's not as if i did it on purpose laa . =D (super singlish)

ohkay , so , i was at taiwan ever since 22nd to the 29th . and like wooh ! , i had fun =D

i made friends ... yes , friends . people like , LYNN , ben , ben's wife , lynn's parents , and many other people .

went shopping for clothes(: endup buying like 10tops (?) 3 shorts (?) and 3dresses for minle!

I was meant to get boots ! ): but like , i end up looking about approx. 50boots , and i found them

all not nice ! eeee~

The food there's likee super nice lur (some) ! They have food like , errm ,

'stinky tofu!' 'seafood congee' , 'coffinBread' (?) 'Cabbage!' and manymany more!(:

talking about them makes me want to *drool ! (: i wanna go there again (: Hees . (:

oh& i found out that the people there aree all tiny and petite size !

oh& not to mention , th traffic there is terrible ! For the whole 8days ,

i think , half of the time we were in the bus lur ! haiyerr , and likee i get the sleep

the whole way !=D oh whatevrr , i'll update the pictures some when later on .(:

That's it for now! =D

♥

s.e.n.t.o.s.a..(:

2009-05-21T18:46:00.003+08:00

the best group pic that day!(:

a make up post(: for wednesday, 20may.

'And I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad.'

'The Dreams in which are dying are the best i ever had.'

'I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take.'

'When people run in circles it's a very,very'

'Mad World, Mad World.'

-Gary Jules

i woke up at 555am that day. turned on my phone, and alif messaged me.

went through my daily routinee, and was donee by 630. messaged angiie

and told herr that i wasnt meetingg them. (andre, fitra, stephen, marcus, junyi and danial and angiie)

cus, i'm superr lazyy to meet them at lotonee. ):

soo i realizedd i was stoningg on my sofaa for half an hourr playingg my sister's psp.

then went off to takee 188 from the busstop nearby my placee.

[Live Experience]

i was sitting in the bus, waiting impatiently to reach vivo. Then there was this 'uncle' that

sat on the empty space next to me. He sat with his legs on the car, like some

barbarians. then he started pickingg his nosee. and digging his ears with his fingers.

and everyth. trust me, i felt like murderingg myself. there was this really weird smell

comingg out of him . i felt likee i was about to die. I started to shiverr , and likee

i could feel all the hair on my hands and modies and legs standing up !

i really wanted to get off the bus but like , i couldnt. and i didnt wanted to talk

or likee stand up! Omgosh! Then there was like this 'daddy' comingg in to the bus

with a child, and i just wanted so badly to like give my seat to him. but like with the uncle?

no way jay! and like , the 'daddy' got off , and like soon after the guy got off . I saw the

tissue he was usingg underr the chair infront of where he sat ! And it was uperr disgustingg !OMGG .

i just wanted to get off and like, wait for the next bus, cus i was afraid that th tissue might just roll and touch me !

---

lemmee just stop it with those 'Live experience' ! it's disgustingg . omg

whatevrr, i'mma just skip to the part then i was gangbanged!

the whole bunch of them , (the previous 7 people plus vanessa) threw sandd at me !

it was superr painful lur ! ): thenn shaqdah&gang came. and blah2, (:

superr tiredd lur ! (: dunt want to go on . i'mma just talk about todayy tmrr (:

whatevr , gnrr sleep now. goodnights(: love!
♥

First Post

2009-05-20T22:39:00.000+08:00

well, this is my first post, and i'mma just start. super lazy lur! (:
so, if anyonee knows me out there in this world, just link me aye?(: