In Santa Monica, all the people got modern names
Like Jake or MandyAnd modern bodies too
In Santa Monica, on the boulevard,
You'll have to dodge those in-line skaters
Or they'll knock you down I never felt so lonely,
Never felt so out of place
I never wanted something more than this
-Savage Garden , Santa Monica.

Best to sayy nothing at all ..

Sudahlah sayang,
I don't believe you.
I've always known that your words were never true.
Why am I with you, I pun tak tahu.
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you.
So I guess that's the end of our story.
Akhir kata she accepted his apology.
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too.
With her ex boyfriend's best friend - Tommy.
-Kantoi - Zee Avi .

All of these , all this lying and hiding , I'm th cause of everything . And when situations like this come into place , there's gotta be someone that takes th blame right ? I'm willing to . Cause , I'm th cause of all this , and there's nobody to blame but me myself and I . Atleast , at th last breath , I became truthful to both parties .

Stephen and Azini . My 2ex boyfriends , because , I twu-timed them together , and I'm in no place to beg for their return . And all I wanna say is that , I do love th both of youu and I still do . Baby , th word's love . And I know that none of youu will be my friend anym . Not to mention , just talk to me . But atleast , please forgive those that know about this 2-timing . That's th most I could ever ask for . It was never their fault , it never was . It was all mine(: , I duntwant to cast th blame on to others , and say it's their fault when it's never . Please , as youu may read this , I begg for yourr forgiveness .

If any of youu guys aree wondering , yes , I cried , and yes , I'm still cryingg . I'm wondering whyy I've cried so much . Whyy I'm still cryingg and in pain , but then at th endd , last night , I slept at 2+ , telling MingHan everything . He made me stopped and ponder , wondering whether in th first place , it was worth to take th risk to twu-time him no actually them . Ohkayh , It's my fault and all , and I shouldnt have , but , what's done is donee . I mean , stuff . Yes , I apologize , I'm sorry Azini and Stephen , I love youu guys ! Andd I still do . 'god , words are seriously just so hard to believe . I mean , I know that myself , so , it doesnt matter if youu guys dunt believe me(: Smiles .

Anyws , I'm here to apologize(: Apologize lemme say , especially Stephen&Azini , ohFuck , I'm in such terrible situation with my friends right now . And I really do regret what I've done . I mean , I dont knoe how to face th both of youu ! I mean , seriously . And I guess , nonee of youu guys will forgive me right ? I mean , esp for what I've done and stuff . Th truth is , I've always wanted to tell youu , I mean th both of youu , youu guys cann askk Shaqdah . I've neverr said anything , becus , I dunt daree . I mean , I dunt daree to sayy anything about everything . I didnt know wheree I'd start even if I hadd ever had th guts to say anything . I'm sorry for keeping all this from youu guys , and I know that this is not going to lead us anywhr , but I just want to let youu guys know this . It's ... Iduntwant to keep it in and every(: I really want to say everything out aloud and let everyone hear this , becus , my friendship and relationship with everyone now seems so fuckedup . But , I'mma be strong , and tahann , becus , I'm at th downs now , and I'll be going up again . Maybee I havent fell to th most bottom part , but I know , I'mma keep falling , thenn gnr finally wakeup and climb back to th top again , wheree I've always been !

I just wanna sayy , I'm sorry Stephen ,&I do lovee youu (: I'd miss th fun times with youu , I'd miss call youu babee / babyy . I'd miss how youu'd send me home and we did takee photos tgtr . I would really miss , recieving yourr msgs and asking about my day and everything (: Thankyouu , for being there for me for th past few weeks(: I still rmbred th dayy whenn I told youu that I'd agreed to tryy it out withh youu , youu were likee soo ghey and soo happy , and I was like asking youu whether youu weree soo happy that youu couldd jump about yourr house . Babyy , you're indeed one of a kind ! Andd I miss youu .

Andd to Azinii , I'm at my deepest regrets to havee done so much things to have hurted youu . Ever since December 11 . I rmbred that dayy by th carpark and everyth . I still rmbred everyth that happened that day . And thenn th following days after that . Youu know what I'd miss th most ? I'd miss yourr touch , andd yourr msges (: 'sitting&talking' by th staircasee , and how youu came overr to my placee , and ate my cooking , and youu said it tastee worser then yours ! Meaniee !): Thenn how we drank beer with Raihan and Shaqdah . Andd smokingg at th smokingg area and everything .(: Imissyouu babyy , and get well soon . I know that youu're sick !): Go see a doctor !

♡

You were talking to her
But messing with me
It's finally clear
You're blurring the lines
Are you disturbed?
Oh, now you care
Why do you race through my red lights?'
'HeyMonday - How do you love me;

If that guy is reading this blogpost right now ! I just want to say this to you ,
'I fuckin' hate you ! I trusted youu in to hurting my girlf ! And yet , that's what you've done ! Hurt her ! I bet you dunt even feel hurt at all ! Did you even know that she waited for youu for half a year ! Uhrgh ! Youu just practically duntcare about her ! If youu say that you duntwant her to feel paranoid nor sad , then whyy must you do such things ! Now , she's thinking you really do have something with yourr 'akak' I dunt care whether you guys have a age difference of 2effin' years ! But youu still hurted herr ! And now ! She's feeling so effin' hopeless ! Thanks to youu ! I fuckin' hate youu ! Uhrgh ! Go awayy ! Youu better stayy away from herr ! But I know that she still loves youu and will await for yourr comeback ! But I want you to stay away !'

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